A waste of time.
Date: Jul 25th, 2006 12:32:34 pm - Subscribe
Mood: quiet.
Curent: music: what ever is playing in the background.
Hum,
*glowers, sulks, storms off with nothing to say*
I thought I had something to say.
Quote of the day: "Life expectancy of ten minutes ago" >>From book: "Born to Rock."
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I'm just writing it out.
Date: Jun 27th, 2006 3:29:47 am - Subscribe
Mood: bonkers
Curent: music: the sound of my vomit.
Bonkers is a DAMN good explination of my mood.
Bonkers it right.
so pretty much. here's the story:
Septermber the first time I saw the new him.
I'd seen him in 8th grade gym mny a time before.
but now...now 2 years later.
he changed.
He was hardcore.
Metalcore.
damnsexycore.
damntakencore.
As was I taken by Steven.
Seeing him for the frist time since 8th grade was gut warming.
It was nether region warming.
We had to do an element's from the perodic table assignment.
We both picked Lithium as our element.
For the same reson, it was a single off Nirvana's album "In Bloom"
I think right then, right there is when I knew I was gonna fall deep in love with him.
Just the look I gave him and the look he gave back.
I knew I was going to fall hard.
The rest of the year was spent lusting, gushing, nearly crying, heart racing, all over him.
I've even had Him induced panic attacks.
and when he was hospitilized all I could think about was "where'd he go?"
When he came back I'd fallen so hard for him, so quickly, I could barely go into my Chemistry class anylonger.
Despite the me liking girls part I loved him more than I had "loved" steven.
And that hurt me more than anything.
and tonight.
courtesty of myspace,
I pretty much professed my love to him.
er.
I thought it was gone.
I thought I'd moved on.
But out of a stupid move.
I got myself into a stupid rut.
and spilled.
and it was horrible.
because he doesn't know how to react.
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If you are a David Levithan fan, we need to talk.
Date: Jun 26th, 2006 11:20:49 pm - Subscribe
Mood: liberated
Curent: music: Hateful by The Clash.
*coughs*
Rain, rain, rain, raaaain.
That's all it's been for the past four days.
And I've. Been. LOVING. IT.
I should live in Seattle part time.
That way I can wear my flannel and not be laughed at...
AND Have endless rainy fun.
Dancing in the rain should be a sport.
something.
I was the only street dancer out there,
the neighbors looking at me strangely from behind lace curtains.
I outside doing the run, pull the legs up, snap the legs down hit the water hard sort of jumps.
Mosh jumps I supose?
Anywho. I was soaking wet gonna get in trouble but very well I was soaking happy too.
Lonely, lonely, lonely.
Puh, I wan't a Nick and Norah typea love.
Spontanious and fueled by musack (music)
If you are a David Levithan fan, we need to talk.
In spite of the rain I made a Rain playlist.
"Rain" by Blind Melon.
"Singin' in the Rain." Jamie Cullum cover.
"Covered in Rain." John Mayer
and such.
*giggles*
I'm also craving one of those never ending nights.
You know?
Th' type that seem like the sunrise will never come, and something that happened 2 seconds ago feels more like 2 months ago.
I want one of those.
A sober one this time preferably.
Now-ish would be groovy.
But I've no place to go
No one to see.
I've only got myself, my peroid, The Clash, and some soy ice cream.
Makin' the best of it.
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I want a blue bike
Date: Jun 23rd, 2006 1:57:21 pm - Subscribe
Mood: aloof
Curent: music: Last Nite by the strokes, annnnd Girl's Town
hello bitches,
hos,
and all around good people.
It HAS been a while.
a long while.
many, many a thing has changed since last post.
wow, I was a little airhead a few months ago hum?
since then I have:
broken up with steven,
had a brush with a mental instution.
fallen in love.
fallen out of love.
had the family blown apart by my issues.
come out the closet as a lesbian.
become a vegan.
changed my lifestyle.
found hate life again!!!
passed sophmore year with only a few near death expiriences.
intresting the changes in a few months eh?
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Homecomming 2005
Date: Oct 2nd, 2005 3:10:24 pm - Subscribe
Mood: jazzed
Curent: music: \"More than words\" Frankie J
"More Than Words." by Frankie J, the song we melted to.
>>>SATERDAY MORNING>>>
Meand my mom got into instant fights because when we're under presure we become really irritiable in this house. My mom was annoying the SHIT out of me. Anyways 10 fights later Steven shows up yo pick me up to go to Sarah's house to take pictures. My mom had spent an hour on my hair and made it bigger than the people's hair in Hair Spray i was thinking of crying. Anyways when Steen showed up I was still in my robe (which is really just a big work shirt that I stole from my dad.) So of course my mom freaks out
"GET BACK UPSTAIRS HE CANT SEE YOU LIKE THAT!!" He probally sees more on me than that on a daily basis. So I go back upstairs, smear my makeup on in less than a minuite I said I was going for a "netural" look. A really netural look... So eveentually we got out of th house and over to Sarah's suprisingly with out any curling iron burns.
AT SARAHS:
At Sarah's we were the first one's there cause we were going in this huge group. Seriously no one was ready, we were there before Sarah and it was her house. Over the next 15 minuites everyone drifted in.
THE HOMECOMMING GROUP.
Lauren, Sam, Vanessa, Sarah, Leanna, Chris, Taylor, Steven, Dana and me.
DINNER:
We went for a really expensive, nice dinner in this Italian resteraunt where alot of people went before going to the dance. We had our fun and laughs there. *Sigh* Fun stuff at the resteraunt.
AT THE DANCE:
Hahaha the dance. It was really uncomfortable the first 20 minuites but we got into the groove after a while. Not many girls were wearing shoes so there was alot of injured toes and such. (The barefootness will bring up a problem later on) Me and Steven danced so much. In the middle of the dance floor, something we called "The Orgy" everyone was freak dancing and sweating like hell so it was pretty damn hot. There was so much sweat and gross condensation about 2 hours into the dance the windows were fogged up, there was puddles of sweat on the floor! The walls were wet, the celling was dripping well most likely sweat. The girls who took thier shoes off (which was pretty much all of us) had sweaty feet from dancing hence the puddles on the floor.
NOW HERE'S THE SCANDAL:
so me and steven were slow dancing, really really into it, into this...slow groove it was so nice! I had my eyes closed and when i opened them me and steven were about the kiss FOR THE FRIST TIME and then! This annoying girl that i don't get along with started wiggling us apart and saying "Hey love birds! Love birds!" so we parted and looked at her and she parted our moment to show us THAT SHE COULD RAVE WITH GLOW STICKS! I was so pissed. I was like "saekdkjblsjb" Then by the time she was done, the song was OVER! That was some bullshit! Sigh anyways. Blah blah blah sex on the dance floor. Went to dana's house, had fun, cuddled, fun, talked, went home, took a shower, went to bed in bliss.
*dances*
Fun night. Get to go to dinner for my birfday tonight!
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