it slipped right through my hands

Jan 1st, 2006 5:49:41 pm - Subscribe
Mood: discouraged

So my boyfriend that I just recently realized I loved so dearly, told me that he "doesn't want the 'girlfriend' title right now" and that I'm still a "great girl" and he "still cares about me a lot." Obviously, he's afraid of commitment if he doesn't want the girlfriend title, right?

But I don't regret it. I don't regret loving him. And what really sucks, is that I really do love him...and I can't close my heart to the things I shouldn't feel anymore...

But it seems to me that now I can't get caught up in something that's never going to happen...I'll just have to move on to the next best thing...

Nevertheless, my heart is so broken and confused. Two months ago he told me that what he and I had was so real and he would never have any intention on leaving. BULLSHIT!

I never thought I could love and hate one person at the same time, but I was very wrong.

Here are some song quotes that might explain my rush of feelings more than I could:

"But you’re so afraid to lose, and baby I can’t reach your heart
I can’t face this world that’s keeping us apart"

"And now there’s no way out
And I can’t help the way I feel"

"Like a drug that makes you blind,
It'll fool ya every time"

"The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See, you got no say at all"

"Every time I turn around
I think I've got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin' and I keep on fallin'
Over and over again
This sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pourin' rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two"

"Its cool you didn’t want me
Sometimes you can’t go back
But why’d you have to go and make a mess like that"

"There’s nothing left to say
Except I never thought it'd hurt this much to be saved"

"I walk out of this darkness
With no sense of regret
And I go with a clear conscience
We both know that you can’t say that
Here's to show
For all the time I loved you so…"

"How come I never hear you say
'I just wanna be with you'
I guess you never felt that way"

"You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth. I just can't take it"

"Seeing you it kills me now"

"No way to tell what's real from what isn't there"

"You washed away the best of me
You don't care"

"There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn"

"Take the hint and walk away
'Cause I'm gone
Doesn't matter what you do
It's what you did that's hurting you
All I needed was the truth
Now I'm gone"

"It's always me that's reaching out
For your hand"

"It seems so much is left unsaid"

"I gave you everything
And never asked for anything
And look at me
I'm all alone"

"I hate myself for loving you"

"Dont play that song for me
'Cuz it brings back memories
Of the days that I once knew
And all the days that I spent with you"

"I surrender"

"I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
There's no doubt in my mind where you belong"











I'm tired of love...I give up....

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