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outoforder happy valentines day - Subscribe
yeah so here i am sitting at the library on what's supposed to be love day. i have someone on this day, but for some reason i feel almost alone as ever. and i don't really know why. i have someone, i should be happy. i should be happy he's there, he's forgiving, he's kind, but it's not that. there's something missing. and that missing something is ruining this entire relationship i spent 5 whole months trying to work out. but there's nothing wrong. maybe that's the problem? i feel so numb to this relationship, sometimes i don't think it even exists. at least that's how i'm feeling about it. my heart's not in it, my mind, i'm just out of it. and he doesn't deserve it. and i have nothing to show for it.

nothing at all. i'm such a bitch.
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Mood: regretful

outoforder i am not happy Feb 15th, 2006 4:53:51 am - Subscribe
i want to be happy. what's making me like this!

AHH IM SOO FRUSTRATED WITH LOVE
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Mood: hysterical

outoforder a sag curse Feb 27th, 2006 4:25:05 am - Subscribe
i am constantly craving attention

i'm obsessed with becoming a better self

except i know i'll never be happy

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Mood: lame