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outoforder i am such a party pooper - Subscribe
okay you know you're a loser when you had a shitty weekend and a very uneventful one at that when you know you're by yourself, and people invite you to do things, and you still want to be alone.

but that was okay, it was nice to be able to reevaluate myself by myself. man i'm hungry. i want to be like a star and just not eat. watching the oscars just screams at you to make you anorexic. seriously, how can anyone say to love your body when the media is screaming for you not to be? you open a magazine, you turn on the tv and all you see are those skinny whores who are making money by not eating. as much as i hate it, and as much as i hate looking at nicole richie, i can't help but want to be like her.

i want to be happy when i walk in a fitting room and feel the jeans loosely fit into my legs. i hate feeling fat. i hate it even more when people tell me i'm not.

i hate my legs, i think they're too big. my arms could use some work. and i don't even want to get started with my belly.

kate winslet makes me happy. titanic is nice. i'm going to suck in my stomach for the rest of my fucking life.
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Mood: discontent

outoforder fobs Mar 17th, 2006 7:57:48 am - Subscribe
i cant focus. finals week is coming up, and i cant even try to study. ugh this is such a bummer and i need to study. its midnight, get some sleep. so many things on my mind but can't really put to words. exept for the fact that i'm getting really broke. ughhhhh.
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Mood: incomplete