outoforder's Blog

this is what happens when you give in
Date: Dec 6th, 2005 7:03:35 am - Subscribe
Mood: crestfallen


you get fucked over!

i really can't believe it happened to me again and how i let it. i'm really dumb and prone to bullshit. he does this over and over again, and i just keep letting it happen. i'm soooo stupid. to hear my heart out for one time, and i mess things up.

things are really messed up. i just need this to be over. i'm turning 20, new year new me.

i hate being so disappointed in myself. especially when i know this entire thing could have been avoidable. i chose the wrong path again, and now i need to go through the consequences.

i can't wait to see my sisters again, they make me sane. ughghgh. i'm way to dramatic. don't you ever think to yourself, "god why am i complaining so much, there are people out there who don't even have a penny in their pockets, and here i am, sitting with a token opportunity to shine in my hand and throwing it away at the very first sign of defeat or disappointment."

he makes me fucking crazy and he needs to get out of my life. the thing is, i let him back in every time.
Comments: (2)

jeni - December 06th, 2005 "New year, new me" Remember that. Change one small thing in your life at a time.

perfect110 - December 06th, 2005 Good luck- change is hard, but it is possible. perfect~

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