Arrie's Blogs... - "did u love me only in my head?"

"did u love me only in my head?"	Jul 31st, 2006 9:20:13 pm - Subscribe
i went and sat judgement at my grandparents and in front of my aunts i used to love my aunt jane i used to wish to be just like her BUT i dont see anything in her that i want in myself. the one thing that bugs me is how they view my weight and how they told me i better stop eating fast food or ill get fat...or things i shouldnt eat.. i hate that im fine in fact been loseing weight thanks very much. that and the critzing of my job im fucking 19 for heavens sakes my job is fine for now. plus at least im not unemployed like her thats always a good thing. that and critizing all my friends i got from wendys its not fair what the hell does she even know she knows none of them. im sick of being measured up and comeing up short and even my school picks arnt good enough the only good thing that this does is my parents love everything i do for awhile and stick up for me majorly. im going to a movie and dinner with my mommy and sister TA -ariel "And you can trust me not to think And not to sleep around If you dont expect too much from me You might not be let down Cause all I really want is to be with you Feeling like I matter too If I hadnt blown the whole thing years ago I might be here with you"
Mood: horrible what im humming toGin Blossoms- Hey Jealousy	.(2) comments.

	long_gone	August 04th, 2006
	I know how ya feel, but in the end your the one who's gotta live with your choices, if you like your life don't let them get to you. If there anything like my family it won't matter what you change for them they'll still say things, so just live for you and enjoy it.

	emogirlie	July 31st, 2006
	i hope your family realizes that you have your own life and that you should be able to live it however you choose to. <3