sooo true.
Date: Oct 15th, 2004 2:19:22 pm - Subscribe
Mood: intoxicated
I don't feel the way I've ever felt.
I know.
I'm gonna smile and not get worried.
I try but it shows.
Anyone can make what I have built.
And better now
Anyone can find the same white pills.
It takes my pain away.
It's a lie. A kiss with opened eyes.
And he's not breathing back.
Anything but bother me.
(It takes my pain away)
Nevermind these are horrid times.
Oh oh oh
I can't let it bother me.
I never thought I'd walk away from you.
I did.
But it's a false sense of accomplishment.
Everytime time I quit
Anyone can see my every flaw.
It isn't hard.
Anyone can say they're above this all.
It takes my pain away.
I can't let it bother me.
It takes my pain away.
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mornings....
Date: Oct 13th, 2004 8:46:49 am - Subscribe
Mood: agitated
the social worker was really nice last night, her daughter is in pretty much the same postion as me so she understand. puts me at ease. mum and dad are being very affectionate. i love them soooo much and i hope things are going to get better soon.
Nick wants to see me this weekend. a part of me wants to just go but another part of me is screaming
then i remember it's over and i start to cry.
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hmmmmm
Date: Oct 12th, 2004 8:09:20 pm - Subscribe
Mood: ignored
first entry. getting kinda fed up with lj so i though i'd try this out 
life has been so weird lately. i don't know how to act anymore. it's as if i've lost sight of when i'm pretending and when i'm not.
i just want someone to tell me they love me and for me to know they mean it.
too bad the only guy i've ever loved is so far away and has no idea i went into hospital last week.
every night in that hospital bed i'd dream he'd come to see me and hold me, to tell me he's sorry.
but instead he keeps doing it.
well i feel a bit better now i've got something out.
watch out for more depressing rants.
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