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I want to go see a movie, tonight. I want to get out of the house..and do something with a friend. Go see a movie..do something..
just get out of the house.
I mean..I've been in the house all weekend. The only chance for escape I got was to go see a movie (Indiana Jones). Which was fun and all..but I need some more fun, too. Not alone-time fun, either.
Indiana Jones: Interdimensional beings, Cate Blanchett gets killed, Indiana gets married to the chick from the first movie..(YAY) and finds out he has a bastard son by her (Shia Lebouf). There. I ruined it for you.
And oh yeah, El Dorado (the treasure they're going after) was really built by interdimensional beings and isn't made of gold. It's just a rock temple with historical artifacts. Which gets destroyed.
I ruined the rest for you. Haha.
About moving:
I'm just going to pack all my stuff up whenever I get the boxes this Thursday. I'm not really going to do anymore..I mean..I want to..but this apartment isn't really fun anymore..and..it's making me very unpleasant. I don't like being unpleasant. I don't like fighting with Randy..
I hate fighting with Randy..
It makes me want to drop everything and leave. (Not because he makes me mad or anything..but because I get mad at him..and start thinking "Well..this stupid fight is my fault.."). I was thinking a lot about..doing some things this weekend.
I fight a lot with mom, too..
So..I just..*sigh* I just want to disappear..for a while..and see how much better their lives are..(because I know that they would be happier w/o me..)..
I don't want to break up..but..you know, I don't want to hear the answer to the question "Would you be happier without me?" if the answer is "yes"..
So..I just wish..I could go away for a little bit..and quietly observe, like, in the background..
Like if I could be invisible for a little while...and just know..y'know..that I wasn't the cause or..you know.. |
