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why can't i find a guy
Date: Sep 18th, 2004 7:39:35 am - Subscribe
Mood: clueless


i don't know whats wrong with me...no not that i think i'm perfect but something is missing (from me)...but i just dont know what.

i see guys i like but they're almost unattainable. They're HOTTTT i say...too HOTTT for them to be interested in me. it may be a matter of self-confidence and all, but since i'm sooo inexperienced in this field, why can't they approach me???

Anyways, so pri and i were talking abt this over msn...coz j may be getting together with this guy...and we were wondering whats wrong with us.

a little history on j: she's had 5bfs in the past 7years...while p & i have had none. Mainly coz we weren't looking really. But now we're on the look-out. j was interested in this older guy frm our year in sch W but coz of religion and all, they can't get married etc. so they thot there wasnt any point in pursuing tho theyre both supposedly hung up on each other. So that was going on till like last week (they still kept in touch) and on tues, this other guy N makes jokes and talks to her and all, until she falls for him. but i thot it was a crush. then last nite, fri...he fetches her home frm sch i think and somehow they feel they're perfect for each other!!!! and p and i just wondering "How does she do it!!!"

here i am obsessing over a guy but not doing anything abt it coz i'm shy. and well i dunno him at all.
why am i alone? p thot it was coz we lack self-confidence but i told her she has lots of self-confidence wat. then she went on and on abt how i am a hottie so i shdnt be not self-confident! I AM SOOO NOT A HOTTIE lor! anyways, she ended by saying how she always wondered why i'm not attached...she thinks i'm perfect ...thats the first time anyone has commented i'm perfect and wasnt joking. i dunno la...whats wrong with me? or is it the guys? i'm not attracted to the guys who like me...and those i'm attracted to dont seem to notice me.
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music speaks louder...
Date: Sep 17th, 2004 4:51:21 pm - Subscribe
Mood: wishful


TALK TO ME...by Keri Noble

There you are again
I see you all the time
We haven’t really met yet,
But you know, I don’t mind
’Cuz I think today’s the day
I’m gonna go right up and say to you
Would it be alright
If I called you up sometime?

There you go again
I let you get away
At least I’ve got more time
To think of what I might say (like)
Couldnt we be good (or maybe)
Dont you think that we should find
Some quiet little place where we’d make love all day?

Come and talk to me
What are you waiting for
Cuz I can see you passing every day and I’m always wanting more
Come and talk to me
What are you gonna do
Cuz I can’t seem to get the nerve to get off my own ass
And come and talk to you

You know I love the type
You look like you’ve been up all night
And yet somehow still look beautiful
You do it all at the same time
Whenever you walk by
You always look me in the eyes
And in that moment I know
the same thing’s on your mind

It always seems to be that I let the good things pass by
Because I let my fear stop me (but not this time)


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