pixie's Blog

been gone for a while.
Date: Jun 14th, 2005 2:49:08 am - Subscribe
Mood: mature


i am still to fat. i will never. ever. be thin enough.
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right now, i am a great anorexic!
Date: May 18th, 2005 2:37:14 am - Subscribe
Mood: incredible
Calorie Total For Today:: 0

i've done so well with the whole fasting thing for the past week. it has truly been a wonderful experience, and i feel so in-control of my own body.

i know not everyone agrees with what i'm doing, but honestly, starvation makes me happy..i like this empty feeling..and i enjoy seeing those low numbers on the scale..

thank you all for being so encouraging to me. i am well on my way to being underweight..and perfect.

take care. and i will let you know how i'm doing again soon.
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Day 2 of Fast 2..
Date: May 15th, 2005 11:53:21 am - Subscribe
Mood: starving
Calorie Total For Today:: 0

well i started a fresh water fast yesterday at midnight, so as of now, i have not eaten for over 36 hours. this fast is ONLY water. no juice, no coffee, and no gum. i'm flushing my system of all those nasty toxins..

so yeah. this fast is going a lot better than the other one did..i feel very strong about it. and i KNOW that i will make it to the end.

the plan is, water fast for at LEAST 6 days..i have to get to 6 days with no food, because a girl on tv said she did, and i have to beat her(i know its rediculous, but i'm very competitive) so once i hit the 6 day mark..i'll just ignore food for as long as i can..hopefully i can exceed my record and go for 21 days..but i dont know yet if i will be able to "fake eat" with my parents around for that long...so whatever. i just want to starve..and starve i will.


day 2 and day 3 are always the hardest, because your body is the lowest on ketones and such..so if i'm going to fail. its going to be today or tomorrow..i need to go find something to do..and i WILL NOT FAIL.

"let the body burn the fuel it has already stored."
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I am a whale.
Date: May 11th, 2005 10:49:51 pm - Subscribe
Mood: slothful


i honestly feel like the most pathetic and obese peice of crap on the planet.

oh yeah. and i hate my friends.

so in other news. today i drank 6 cups of coffee, and had a small salad. 50 cals, plus coffee total.

tomorrow will be better, i'm not going anywhere, or doing anything except working out and practicing the art of perfect. that's right. its an art. ever try to make everything around you perfect? it takes all day..all week...all life!!

so i'll be busy burning cals and doing very ocd things. screw my friends, they suck hardcore.

i seriously hate how this girl treats me. but its okay. i'll show her, i'll be thin.
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First 2 days of fast = crap. next 3 will be better
Date: May 10th, 2005 10:10:57 pm - Subscribe
Mood: stupid


depressingly, i've been binge/purging my guts out these first two fast days. well actually, i havent really binged, but i've purged a lot. day one i ate spinach, and then iced coffee, i purged it all. day 2 i ate about 700 calories total, probably purged all but 100. i've decided that the next 3 days are going to be 0 calorie days. not even liquid cals will be consumed, to make up for the dissapointing attempt at fasting i've made so far.

note to self:
pix, you are so fat. you are enormous, and huge, and everyone thinks so. no one loves fat girls. you wont get anywhere in life without that perfect body. you've come to far in life to take orders from a cookie. you MUST not eat. its important that these next three days are 0 calorie days. it is the ONLY way to achieve your goals. if you are not 125 lbs by june first, you cant go tanning anymore, and you have to wear long pants and sleeves all summer. you will NOT get away with eating. it is NOT okay, and it DOES matter. stop thinking that eating "just this once" is no big deal. it IS a big deal. every calorie consumed is one step further away from thin.

being thin is the most important thing. do not settle for less than skin and bones.
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