I was never good enough for you, and I never will be.

(So many times, I'd try to make you understand, explain it forwards and backwards, a million ways, but you just weren't there. We were never on the same plane. Disconnected, I'd just curl up next to you, just wishing, wishing, wishing you'd just know.)

So fuck it.

(No! No! NO! I didn't want to let you go, I didn't want to just.)

I'm a ghost. Why don't you listen? Why don't you listen? Why don't you

(I finally did it, I finally, finally said something, it was easy really, it just spilled out of my mouth, these brave words just spilled out before you and you said, no. You said, I do not accept your sacrifice. I do not accept your, this.)

listen?

I can never talk to you, why don't you ever tell me? You never TELL me! You never tell me.

(Never, never, never, never, no, there can't be that many, I just. What? I just, just, I'm trying to sort things out in my head, but they're so... something, there's no, words, there's no, logic, there's no beginning to the story, no anything, nothing.)

Goodnight.

what makes me so fucking good huh why dont you think i listen mabey i do im just to dumb to figure anything out..your to complex for me to untangle ive tried but then u just throw another one at me i do tell you i do its just theres not much in my head i really am simple...thats y were not good for eachother you dont need me i just make everything worse you need somebody who ponders just as much as you do sombody who can know what your thinking with out you saying it..i thought i could but u just threw a huge knot at me alittle while ago and i didnt even see it coming and it swallowed me up now im a tangled mess because i cant figure out what happend how i can love you so much and it just sits in fornt of your face like and ugly flower i dont know im jsut rambling