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Date: Feb 18th, 2005 9:23:49 am - Subscribe
Mood: upset


Another fun-filled, action-packed weekend coming up: Two shows, shopping, first date w/ Matt, precal project, presidency research paper, and packing for the trip to New Orleans. I'm so glad I'm leaving Tuesday. I need to clear my head. I feel like such a phony. All I do is go through the motions, put up this front, even though I procrastinate and never get anything done. I want to be genuinely happy again...instead of just pretending. The truth is, I'm miserable. I have been every since Eric dumped me. I miss being in love, I want to find that again, but I probobly won't, for a very long while anyways. Love isn't worth it if you are just going to go through this much pain afterwards. The only way I'll ever be in a another serious relationship is if it'll last forever...but then there's no way of knowing, all well. I think I give up.

Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing.
~ Anais Nin

There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course.
Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.
-Carl Jung

How much longer?
Comments: (2)

joe_chachi - February 19th, 2005 Thank you for posting in my blog. I feel better now.

post_love - February 19th, 2005 I'm not sure how my prying made you feel better. Or maybe it's because you read mine and it's depressing too (?), haha...but you're welcome...anytime

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