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Sunday - Just Another Day In Lonesome
Date: Jun 23rd, 2007 8:19:53 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Melancholy
Load on my mind: "Friday, I'm In Love" - The Cure

The Cure.
Yes, The Cure.
Great band, Lovecats, Boys don’t cry… OMG yep.

Thought I’d start on a nice little note.

Anyway. What has been going on, come on, think. What has been going on.

Life is getting, there.
Getting my shit in order for school.
Trying to void any feelings.
Cutting off conversations if I get too attached.
Unhealthy little thing, I am.
Can’t keep cutting communications with people. Trying to run to new people, but you thought I’d do that…
I remember you told me that I always try to hold my head high, even when I’m the bad guy, and that there’s only so many people in the world, then I’ll be alone, if I don’t change. Well… thanks for that, I was already lonely, hang on, I’ve got some salt here, OUCH yeah salt in the wound…
Woo, not only am I lonely and recently single against my will, I’m also a terrible person. You confuse me and I take every word you say like a gods. I don’t know why, you broke my heart, I should hate you. I should take it back, but I can’t. And I can see that you are going to step on it again. Separate the blood from organ, leave an arty little mark on your bedroom floor.

I want to cut communications, need to get out, just for a walk. Somewhere new. A new love. I need a new love, I’m a lover, I know that now. I’m as manned up as ever.
I’m pretty happy, but I have a hole in me, not looking for anyone, just wandering. No one comes for me… maybe its not my time. I don’t want to look because I’m scared there just isn’t anyone there.

This is just a melancholy thing.
No one is happy.
Name one person at peace with everything.
See… That’s why I’m not an optimist.
As hard as I try, the facts just point to the negative.
Probably have the map upside down.

Let your love act as fire and free fall.
A ball of flame,
Make love.
Satisfy yourself and more.
Because some of us can’t.
You’ve got the gift.

In Aeternum,

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