Thursday - I am not overly concerned.
Date: May 17th, 2007 4:38:28 am - Subscribe
Load on my mind: At a roundabout.
"If its love she said, then were gonna have to think about the
She cant stop shaking and I can t stop touching her and..."
- Counting Crows
"It seems like I should say as long as this is love...
But its not all that easy so maybe I should just
Snap her up in a butterfly net-
Pin her down on a photograph album
I am not worried
Ive done this sort of thing before
But then I start to think about the consequences
Because I dont get no sleep in a quiet room and..."
- Counting Crows
Why does love stay so close and tie in with my soul?
... Emo-shit. See also, Adolescence, see also Raging Hormones, see also Confusion.
Feels so right to keep this love, feels like i shouldn't have to throw this away.
We don't ever get to be together again.
This doesn't fade.
I'm left all alone with a lingering love that never goes away.
Why must we kick each others shins to show we care?
To show we want to be in each others arms.
Why must we court constantly?
Why can't we erase each other from this cyclic mess?
Think of other girls naked.
Think of that nice one you talk to, she might be young, but hey, shes not that much younger, shes nice, shes intelligent, shes cynical, shes artistic, shes pretty... she has that mix you say you want, Pura.
Why does Grove girl linger in your mind.
Fuck knows that its only been a week.
And you don't want to hurt her, you love her.
Why can't this love be continued?
You know the answer, because it doesn't work, it never works.
But what if...?
Try it again?
Why, no one would like it, and it might end up worse.
But every time you hug her and every time you feel her push against you, you remember that your heart won't give her up, you're stuck in her heart too.
And she doesn't even have to be near to feel this way.
You look next to you, when you lay in a bed she never slept in and remember her being there. And it doesn't make you cry, it helps you sleep.
You want to wake up next to her.
You want to let her sleep while you make her coffee, you want to be all hers.
Still in love.
See also, obsessed.
See also, lonely.
See also, confused.
This love. It ended with a bang and then an aftermath.
She wanted this, so its only normal you feel this way, Pura.
But, this happened last time...
You've never been so... in love.
You never thought there was a degree to which you could feel this to.
Even in a bubble, the bubble that is our hometown, who says you can't find the 'one' in such a small sample of the world.
You're only 17, Pura. Yes, only 17, but with more relationship experience then people twice you're age. then what....
Is this obsession?
see also, clinging
see also, dwelling
see also, manipulated
see also, confused
see also, right?
Or is it real?
I think i need to slow down and get away,
Even if for a few days.
We'll find out. one day.
Can't live, waiting for the future.
Can't move on though, not yet.
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