Tuesday - Happy Day. Happy People.
Date: Jun 26th, 2007 6:29:21 am - Subscribe
Mood: Weight lifted from my shoulders
Load on my mind: Let's Go To Bed - The Cure
It’s amazing when you find someone.
Someone who has so much in common with you that you just want to hug them.
Someone who has a part of your past, someone you can advise when they need it.
And they thank you for it.
And it makes it seem all worth it, to go through that pain, to benefit another.
What’s even better is when you think you might fall in love and you think they might feel the same way.
Not to give your hopes up. But there’s that chance and its bubbly and fluffy.
And you don’t really care wether or not it happens. It doesn’t matter.
I found someone like that, someone I talked to a little when I was 14-15.
Only a few years later, but it feels like a lifetime.
You see the good part of your past loves all combined with more.
It’s nice. The only problem is the distance, only a few hours. But it’s so far at this age.
I’m sorry to rant and rave. But, I found the nicest girl in a long time.
She sends me messages, msn, hotmail, phone.
To tell me that she’s thinking about me, and then we laugh and converse.
With only one problem, she’s in a dying relationship.
Dying the same death as my last.
But why can’t I still like her, there is no reason really. I only know her, not him, he makes her unhappy.
But it’s a man law, don’t hit on taken girls.
So I don’t, but I love her all the same, she makes me happy.
I’m so excited, relationship or friendship. It’s still brilliant.
A good change, remove ones self from a small town of dirt and look at the gold I’ve found outside.
Ah… Its good.
That’s all I have to say really.
Thought I’d write it down, scribble it.
Because its word worthy.
School life has been uneventful, the social side that is.
Thank god. For I don’t believe I could go back to it.
I don’t hate everyone, I just dislike what the majority of them stand for.
I dislike the awkward conversations, I dislike the inept disputes.
I’m just tired of it. I go to school to learn now.
The Cure will be the last band I go through a phase of in high school. It’s a good feeling.
I mean think about it.
I went into school, Year 7, Van Halen and eminem.
Year 8, Dashboard confessional, Bloodhound gang and Gorillaz.
Year 9 Linkin Park, NIN, Slipknot and SOAD.
Year 10 NIN, Tool, The Used, White Stripes, Modest Mouse, Cradle of filth, Marilyn Manson, Hendrix, R.E.M. & Lior
Year 11 NIN, Tool, Jeff Buckley, Modest Mouse, Clint Mansell, A Perfect Circle, Leonard Cohen, The Mars Volta, Mr. Bungle & Radiohead
Year 12 Ben Harper, Gnarls Barkley, Jeff Buckley, NIN, TOOL, Sia, Bloc Party, Smashing Pumpkins, The Cure
That’s a very short list. But… I can probably pin point when things started going wrong for me, but, things are slowly heading to the positive again. The Cure will be my band for this last term of survival.
Then a year off.
He. Is dead to me. She, scares me.
But it doesn’t bother me as much as before. Hey I can get rid of the people I don’t want soon.
I’m pumped for life. Pumped for people. Pumped for love. Pumped for happiness.
All I’ve got to do is stand on the starting block and wait for the gun to go off.
Free Blog Hosting Join Today
Content Copyrighted pura at Aeonity Blog