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Always and Forever - Subscribe
It would never happen to me...
But today, It did.
Senior year is here
Emotions are taking over.
Cap and gowns
Rings and souviners..
Its all taking over.
I cried today.
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Always and Forever - Subscribe
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I always said i wouldnt It would never happen to me... But today, It did. Senior year is here Emotions are taking over. Cap and gowns Rings and souviners.. Its all taking over. I cried today. |
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What If/ Everyman 9/12th/04 7:52 am [255] - Subscribe
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Im reading a play called Everyman.. its good check it out. The book is really cheap too so GO BUY IT! What if.. [x] I said I liked you: [x] I lived next door to you: [x] I started smoking: [x] I stole something: [x] I was hospitalized: [x] I ran away from home: [x] I got into a fight & you weren`t there: What do you think about my: [x] Personality: [x] Eyes: [x] Face: [x] Hair: [x]Clothes: [x] Mannerisms: [x] Family: Would you: [x] Be my friend? [x] Lie to make me feel better? [x] Spread rumors about me? [x] Keep a secret if i told you one? [x]Let me borrow some cash? [x] Hold myhand? [x] Take a bullet for me? [x] Keep in touch? [x] Give me a hug? [x] Try & solve my problems? [x] Love me? [x] Date me? And, the 2nd one... 01. Who are you? and whats our relationship? 02. How and where did we meet? 03. What's my middle name? 04. How long have you known me? 05. Tell me one good thing about myself? 06. When you first saw me, what was your impression? 07. My age? 08. Birthday? 09. My Favorite band at the moment? 10. Color of my eyes? 11. Do i have any siblings 12. Have you ever had a crush on me? 13. Whats one of my favorite things to do? 14. Do you remember one of the 1st things i said to you? 15. describe me in 3 wordz? 16. name 5 things i love? 17. do you think im good looking? 18. how would you describe me to someone? 19. would you ever date me? 20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did? 21. what do you like most about me? 22. if we could spend the day together, what would we do? 23. have we ever gotten in a fight? 24. do you think we will be friendz for at least 3 or 4 more years? 25. give me one nickname and explain why you picked it? 26. what do you think my weakness is? 27. do you think i'll get married? 28. what makes me happy? 29. what makes me sad? 30. what reminds you of me? 31. if you could give me any thing, what would it be? 32. when's the last time you saw me? 33. do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same? 34. do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and i would listen? 35. are you going to put this on your xanga and see what i say about you? 36. if i was an ice cream flavor, which would i be and why? 37. what song(if any) reminds you of me? 38. if you could change one thing about me, what would it be? 39. would you make a move on me? 40. do i cross your mind at least 1 time a day? |
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an answer? 9/6th/04 1:17 am [249] - Subscribe
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Will There Ever Be An Answer? I HATE LIVING HERE! it drives me crazy that i have 0% control over anything in my life.. AND I MEAN NONE! Im soo ANNOYED people ALWAYS take advantage of me or whatever they want i just have to do or go along with! My stupid BITCH "aunt" moved back in today.. and i just got a lil bit of info for her.. ITS NOT HAPPENING AGAIN! I am NOT putting up with her SHIT like i did last time and I WILL go off on her! I HATE THAT STUPID WHORE! My mother decided to LIE to me again today.. QUITE A FEW TIMES! I really dont depend on her for anything anymore. Shes not even WORTH depending on in the least! There was ONE and i repeat ONE good thing about today and thats the fact that my Aunt said that she would to my senior pix for me.. [she does weddings and specail events]. I cant wait! Her husband has a friend with this BEAUTIFUL house, and lake, and everything.. and so im gonna get my pictures taken on and near the lake.. Its so amazing over there. I cant wait! Anyway, thats all i have for right now.. maybe i will have more later... -Crystal |
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its like... oooo C2 9/5th/04 1:36 am [248] - Subscribe
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Blah.. the boredom ofdoing layouts... Well, does anyone want to send me any stills from the Good Charlotte Predictable video? I neeeed some! AHH Anyways, back to work for mee.. Love C2 ALWAYS! mm mm good! -crystal |
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seein:: BB5! WOO |
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Today consisted mainly of being outside. Sitting. Waiting for people to come to our stupid garage sale. Having neighbor kids come. Me putting away what they get out. Making lunch. Getting yelled at by my dad on numerous occasions. Basically, being rather annoyed. I hate garage sales anyway. I really do. So, school hasn't even been going on for a whole week and I'm already dreading going. Mainly because in american lit we have to "tell stories that teach who we are." I have no interesting stories that tell who I am. I'm a boring person. Everything that has ever happened to me is really boring. Plus the fact that I hate public speaking makes everything worse. Sigh.. I don't feel much like doing anything. - alycia |
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its not everyday.. 9/3rd/04 10:40 pm [246] - Subscribe
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it seems like i just update when i am pissed.. and thats probably true.. but when im pissed i never want to talk to people b/c i just seem to get even more people mad at me. It was a fairly good week.. :-/ it had its ups and downs... I made new friends, hung out w/some old friends, got to spend a whole day at the elementary school for my class.. and some more stuff i dont really remember And now.. it seems like EVERYONE is blowing up at me for no reason! like.. no one really care that i had a bad day and dont feel well but still just want to make it even worse! UGG! And when im mad i eat.. must call dominos! WOW! i just ran a virus scan and i had 2026 infected files and 26 different viruses.. :-/ err well, they're all gone now.. so YAY |
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Standing On The Edge 8/28th/04 1:54 pm [240] - Subscribe
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Ok, So over about the past year i've been trying to think of some songs for my graduation in May. Being from Georgia.. almost EVERY year they have some sort of COUNTRY song.. and this year that is NOT happening! And last year they almost picked a CHRISTINA A. SONG! That is NOT happening either! So.. i could really only think of 2.. IN MY LIFE There are places I'll remember All my life, though some have changed Some forever, not for better Some have gone and some remain All these places had their moments With lovers and friends, I still can recall Some are dead and some are living In my life, I've loved them all But of all these friends and lovers There is no one compares with you And these memories lose their meaning When I think of love as something new Though I know I'll never lose affection For people and things that went before I know I'll often stop and think about them In my life, I'll love you more Though I know I'll never lose affection For people and things that went before I know I'll often stop and think about them In my life, I'll love you more Standing On The Edge (of tomorrow) I'm standing at the edge of tomorrow And its all up to me how far I go I'm standing at the edge of tomorrow I've never seen such a view before A new world before my eyes So much for me to explore It's where my future lies Today I'm standin at the edge of tomorrow From here the future looks bright for me And it's all up to me how far I go It's my time to break away I'm standing at the edge of tomorrow Today...today... today... What do you think of those songs? Or does anyone have anything others??? [ones that HAVENT been used a million times!] |
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Five-card game 8/26th/04 3:40 am [238] - Subscribe
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my quote of the day... You can't have six cards in a five-card game! -Rusty [Brad Pitt] Oceans Eleven What a looong day. I dont really think that i have much to talk about. We did NOTHING in eco. [like always], then i had an anatomy test.. [100% of course =D], and i just had some vocab in lit. Nothing big at all.. SUCH a boring day.. Althought.... i did see }him{ today... just once outside of my lit class. *sigh*if only.. *)REMINDER(*: get movie back from Thad! i fell asleep reading my book today.. i woke back up at 9. but yeah... haha Im goin to sleep soon.. so yeh.. update tomorrow and hopefully ill have something to actually talk about. |
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the perfect drug.. 8/24th/04 3:22 am [236] - Subscribe
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its a rush better than adrenalin i saw }him{ today... we talked.. i was in heaven. Isnt it funny that no one has made me feel like that for like almost a year.. i miss the way reed made me feel everytime i glanced at him, every time i spoke to him and even everytime someone uttered his name.. And now.. theres }him{ i know that i started developing feelings for }him{ last year. we had lunch together everyday, then }he{ was gone.. but now its a new year and }hes{ back... i didnt even realize i missed }him{ until we spoke today.. okay, enough of my adolescent giddiness... my feet hurt from my moms REALLY CUTE but painful shoes that i wore today.. i was soo cute =D. And then i got into this HUGE argument with my mom.. but u know what.. FUCK HER! shes a bitch and [literally] a whore, and i dont care anymore.. so whatever she'll probably forget about me one day. |
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Seems I can't do anything right these days. My parents don't like me a lot of the time. Got to talk to someone I haven't seen in a while. Except it was only for a few minutes cuz he had to go. Darnit. I'm so bored. I've started writing more. I never usually write much during the summer, and now that the summer's winding down I'm picking it up again I guess. I love fall and winter, if only I didn't have that.. school thing. Blah. That's about it. |
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a miraculous discovery 8/23rd/04 3:26 am [235] - Subscribe
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WOO!!! i got my application to NYU today! im soo excited. ok, granted its not exacty my #1 school, i wouldnt turn it down! Its far enough away from this place to work! now i just need one from USC, UCLA, Uni. of san diego, and Uni of cali. at San Diego, and UNCA.. lolol i have a lot of choices i know.. but they all have special reasons.. WOOOOOOO!!! |
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its 2 late 2 say im sorry 8/22nd/04 7:57 pm [234] - Subscribe
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This song is over you think it's just begun It's the start where it all went wrong Won't be the band aid for your affliction Every time it rains you think I'm a raincoat And you say I said I wasn't gunna say I'm sorry Like that song that I sang before I know that it hurts This time it won't last forever I'm sorry now But not sorry enough no, no I'm sorry now It's too late to say I'm sorry. And your friends say You're a fool to believe and they're right but not in the right way I'm lost as I try to decieve it's a lie that we're speaking the same language It's a sin to say I'm sorry that's its even over As you bite down on that bullet I know that it hurts This time it won't last forever. I'm sorry now But not sorry enough no, no I'm sorry now It's too late to say I'm sorry. I know it's cruel, but that we are through, and I can't be the one you cry to but it won't make a difference to you -Mustard Plug : sorry now |
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"Go and get your riot gear, swing your girlie all around. we'll be dancing on the cinders as the town is burning down." "You want my respect, you better start respecing me." Good song. Today was pretty boring. Had a lot of time to think, which isn't too good. Downloaded more songs. That's about it. "Swing her around, burn it all down." - alycia |
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I had another emo blog before, but I got sick of the name. I was listening to "Marvelous Things" by Eisley, and Marvelous worked.. so.. there ya go. My brother had his senior pictures taken today. Can't believe he's a senior. And I'm a junior. So, I'm next. Blah. My sister got her wisdom teeth pulled today too. I felt bad for her. Especially when she got sick from the medicine. I've been download happy today. I've downloaded "Marvelous Things", KJ-52's "It's Pronounced 'KJ Five Two'", Falling Up's "Broken Heart", Paul Wright's "Your Love Never Changes", Building 429's "Glory Defined." I love music. - alycia |
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but the beat goes on... 8/21st/04 2:43 am [233] - Subscribe
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I guess it's luck, but it's the same Hard luck, you've been trying to tame Maybe it's love, but it's like you said, "Love is like a role that we play." But, I believe in you so much I could die for the words that you say But, I believe in you so much I could die from the words that you say But, you're chasin' the ghost of a good thing Haunting yourself as the real thing It's getting away from you again While you're chasin' ghosts I guess it's luck, but it's the same Hard luck, you've been trying to tame Maybe it's love, but it's like you said, "Love is like a role that we play." But, I believe in you so much I could die for the words that you say But, I believe in you so much I could die from the words that you say But, you're chasin' the ghost of a good thing Haunting yourself as the real thing It's getting away from you again While you're chasin' ghosts Just bend the pieces til they fit Like they were made for it But, they weren't meant for this No, they weren't meant for this Just bend the pieces til they fit Like they were made for it But, they weren't meant for this Chasin' the ghost of a good thing Haunting yourself as the real thing It's getting away, away, away, away from you again Chasin' the ghost of a good thing Haunting yourself as the real thing It's getting away from you again While you're chasin' ghosts -Dashboard Confessional |
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So, what happens next? 8/20th/04 7:51 pm [232] - Subscribe
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Ok, soooo since EB has been DOWN!! i havent been able to post in awhile.. last night i had this huge blow out and cry-fest b/c my "best guy friend" [who left about 3 weeks ago and didnt even tell me BYE] practically ignored me and didnt even care that he hurt me.. well at least it seemed that way to me =( I also didnt get to tell my other best guy Happy Birthday yesterday.. *sigh* he's havin a party tonight but it wont be the same.. i think i'd burst out crying or something which would not be good.. either that or get sooo fucked up b/c im so mad and do something STUPID! So, it looks as if im going to have a night at home to myself.. which isnt sounding too bad to me right now.. Anyone wanna read my essay and critique it for me?? PLEASE?! |
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is it impossible 8/16th/04 4:17 am [228] - Subscribe
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so today was unbelievably long... i got woken up at 8:45 by my dad asking if i wanted to go get my car fixed.. I WAS STILL ASLEEP! geez, people always have the worst timing. Then since it was sunday i had to deal w/the family ALL DAY! ugg.. and the stupid races! there is NO point to that "sport". Then i had a HUGE blow out w/my best friend.. *sigh* its just a crazy mixed up world.. |
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frustration, no breathing 8/14th/04 9:38 pm [226] - Subscribe
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have u ever gotten soo mad or frustrated that ur literally shaking? i dont know what it is but its just like these last 2 days have just been WAY too much for me and there is like 0 people for me to talk to... NO ONE for me to rely on, NO ONE that really cares.. UGG!!! i dont even know what to do! i mean, im ALWAYS the person everyone comes to for advice.. i can ALWAYS settle other peoples problems.. but never my own.. its like i have no clue when it comes to my life.. Everything just seems so simple on the out side and then on the inside its just rough and mingled. I cant wait to leave FOREVER!!! FUCK EVERYONE HERE [in georgia] AND EVERYONE I KNOW NOW! |