so this college stuff's got me really busy. since i'm leaving this sat. i've had lots to do...

--sunday--

this was my last week at church...and i enjoyed every moment of it that i could. a few ppl hugged me..many told me they'd miss me..and a ton told me i'd baetter come back and visit. anyways i thought i'd go over to michelle's after church since it didn't work out last week, but she said that their small group was meeting at devon's house instead and i was invited. so i went over there and we had lunch and hung out for awhile. it was really nice. although i really miss just hanging out with michelle like we used to. it's been awhile with her moving and all...and now she's just really busy with other things. so anyways i came home to....betcha can't guess..yah fighting. home sweet home. my brother is out of control these days, just like i used to be..and that's the sad part. so i take my sister over to the neighbor's pool for awhile. later on i go for a walk with jennifer cause we haven't walked that much lately either cause her husband's been working alot. so on the way back from our walk we see marlee's mom across the street with alexis and autumn's mom. i was supposed to babysit for alexis and autumn on monday but autumn had strep throat so she told me she didn't need me after all. so in fact, my last day babysitting the girls was friday...it's funny how it started just with marlee and then towards the end i had alexis and autumn too.


--monday--

so since i didn't have to go babysit all day..i had the pleasure of staying home on my brother and sister's last day before they started school. and boy was it fun...before i knew it i was going crazy with all the screaming and yelling. i took my sister to the library for a little and when i came back my dad starts yelling at me about how i should have been home when my mom got home cause she was going to take me to get some new glasses. yah, i'm going to get glasses again now, just so i can wear them part of the time, when i don't feel like putting in my contacts. see i have my old glasses on now, while i'm in bed, but the prescription is so old, i can't see that well. so back to my story, he yells and yells at me, which he already did the moment i woke up and i wasn't too happy in the morning either cause i woke up to the sound of him and my mom yelling because my dad won't answer the stupid phone while my mom's in the shower. so yeah, he started yelling at me again about how it'll take a few days for the glasses to get in and how he could take me now...but i told him i was smarted than to go with him, which i am. i'm not going with someone who's already yelling at me right now. i wouldn't have gone anyways cause i know how he is in the store..but still. no way. so i waited for my mom to come home. she's mad cause everybody's fighting and she yells at me to get in the car. i haven't ate lunch yet cause i got caught up in working on my stupid puzzle that i kept telling myself i'd get something to eat in a few min. it's already almost 3 and i ate breakfast early. so i'm hungry and my head's starting to hurt and my mom's yelling at me to get in the car, which i do. a few min. into the drive i turn off the radio, she turns it on, i lean to turn it back off(remember my headache) and she swings her arm at me and starts hitting me..while she's driving. i jump in the backseat and yell that i'm not going anywhere so she turns the car around and goes back home...which i'm relieved cause she was already in a bad mood and she didn't want to hear it when i was telling her what dad was yelling about to me. it didn't help when she asked my dad what he said to me and he replied that he said NOTHING to me. what a liar. yah, my mom said it too. but really?? he said nothing..he only went on and on and on and on about it for 10 min....in the morning and then again when i got back from the library. and things didn't get any better from there, it was a horrible day. but at least i got to eat as soon as i got home...and i still had a babysitting job at 5. so that got me out of the house for a few hours. it might have been my last night babysitting for a while, you never know. it was the last time before i go away for hayden and sarah. we played and played and had lots of fun. sarah was so worn out she layed down on the couch and fell asleep. she is so cute and hayden and i built a huge lego tower. i'm gonna miss babysitting...

--tuesday--

well this day started off perfect with my sister turning on my light at 7:30 in the morning to get ready for her first day of fifth grade. it didn't help that i went to bed after 1 in the morning...i don't know exactly when i feel to sleep after all the crying i did from the stress of the day..but i was crabby and oh yah...i started my period..what a great time too..so i couldn't go back to sleep cause i was having bad cramps so i got out of bed. and then since i was up my mom decides that we need to get my glasses today. which by the way she apologized for the other day..which made me feel a little better. but today i knew wasn't going to be that great either. so after a couple hours we have finally picked out a pair of glasses for me and i'm hoping i can get used to them and wear them part of the time. just something a little different. i would never wear glasses while i'm babysitting though cause i can't tell you the number of time kids jump all over me and accidentally hit me in the face with something...it's just not a good thing. so then when i get home i eat right before my friend thao is going to come over to take me where?? the movies. yah. what fun. so we go, we have to meet this other guy from school there and we see the movie pulse. now i liked the movie although the point was kinda...blah..but i liked all the ghosts that kept popping up everywhere...and just...i dunno, the idea of the movie. so i got that over with...i come home. i gave my mom some money so she could buy full house season 4 for me and pretty pretty princess for amanda's birthday..which i'm going to miss. but then we had to go see the psychiatrist so i could get my drugs for college. it seems this is the last i'll see of him though since he's resigning. so i'll just have to see what happens in a few months if i go see someone else or i just say forget it and quit with the anti-depressants. i don't know yet. but i finally got that over with too. so i pretty much worked on my puzzle after that for hours while screaming at my brother and sister when they started bugging me or fighting..or like when my brother was so angry that i wouldn't give him one of my dvd's that he stomped on my leg over and over again. now i have this painful bruise on my thigh from him last week and i thought maybe that'd be the last bruise from him for awhile..but i was wrong, i guarantee that stomping will leave a mark. so will the dvd remote that i jabbed into his side while he was fighting with me earlier. he says i just bruise easily on my legs, i say he hits and kicks to hard cause i've had bruises on my arms from him too. i'm just so sick of him. i cannot wait to leave this house.

well tomorrow i'm supposed to go over to jennifer's house for dinner..a one last time thing with her, scott, and the kids amanda and jacob. i'll give amanda her present there and i'm sure we'll play it many times before bedtime. i know she'll love it cause that one time she came over my house and i played it with her she will not stop talking about it. she calls it "the princess game" but i know what she's talking about. now tomorrow should be a good day..well, it might be a little sad..but it'll be good.

and now, well it's almost 3:30 in the morning and it's been a really long day. i hope my sister doesn't wake me up again at 7:30 in the morning..i need my sleep. plus i'm just not in the greatest of moods. how great is that???