so sat. i get home from work and yes, the hot water is finally working! so i take a shower and then val calls me asking if i want to babysit for her that night while she goes to a concert. so i said yes. it was lots of fun, i played the game trouble for 2 hours with riley and beau...they also played video games for awhile, watched some cartoons, colored, and read before going to bed. it was definitely a fun-filled night. after i got the kids to bed around 9 i tried watching a little tv...but one thing i noticed about cable, you can have a million channels yet still nothing on...well, that interests me..so i fell asleep on the couch and they got home around 11:30 or so. but before i left i talked a little, both with val and john..it had been awhile since i talked to val so that was nice. then i went home and went back to sleep.

sunday was great. i love the kids at church. i saw jennifer in the hall and she told me amanda had been asking where i was all week..so i promised to come over soon. and when i saw amanda i gave her a big hug and the first thing she said to me was "wanna come over today?" but because i was going to carson's b-day party i told her i would soon, but not today. carson's b-day party was switched from sat. to sun. due to the weather so i ended up going right after church and i rode with michelle leaving my car at church. the party was great, there were tons of kids, but because the boy was only turning 2..there were alot of young kids there that i kinda knew just cause of watching them when i babysat for their small group, but alot of them are still over in the nursery hall..not the preschool hall...but i noticed while playing with em all...the younger ones aren't that bad, i've kinda grown to love em...i still like the 3's and 4's alot but the ones that are 2 or younger aren't that bad...first when i started helping out with the preschoolers i kinda had a fear about going in the 2 year old classroom cause the kids are just so young, i don't know..but i'm fine with em now. devon had a trampoline at her house so i was constantly lifting the kids on and off that thing the whole time..and jumping with them. they also had one of those blow up jumpy things that was alot of fun. towards the end devon let me take pix with her digital camera and it was kinda cool...i don't have a camera so....anyways i took some real funny pix.

then when we were leaving it was almost time for my sunday night church thing to start so i just had michelle drop me off at my house so i could at least wash my feet before going..they were all black from the trampoline...and since my car was at church i was going to just have my mom drop me off but she wasn't home so i called morgan. she said she could take me. well, when she comes over she's with brit cause the two of them were off somewhere doing something...these kinds of situations i don't like being put in. it's just if i drove to church and saw them there i probably wouldn't have known they spent the day together but because i called morgan and asked for a ride, they came over together and then when we stopped off at morgan's house...there was brit's car...i would have just rather not have known...so either i'm just really sensitive about this stuff or jealous..but i try really hard not to let things like this bug me..but it's exactly things like this that just make me feel left out of the group..knowing they probably made plans to do something that morning in d-group..i don't even see any of them in the mornings on sundays..but that might change soon..depending on what i decide to do....which brings me to my next topic...

that's the last sunday night program our church will have for awhile now. middle school has their service on sunday mornings so high school will be combining second service for a middle and high school program because there's not enough sponsors and stuff..and the youth minister moved to a different position and the worship guy is going back to school, i think he's leaving this summer..so with all these things going on, they think it's best to cut the sunday night service and combine us with the middle schoolers in the morning. so since i've been with the preschoolers both services in the morning i'm either going to go to the middle/high school program during second service and work with the kids first hour...or work with the kids either first or second hour and go to "big" church the other service...cause i can't just not go to service any....i justified working both services before by saying that i go to the high school thing at night...and now that that's not going to be around. i got to say good-bye to some of the kids...or at least one hour of em....which really saddens me. i wish i could just stay down there...

so i really want to write about yesterday and today but because i'm lazy and i really wanted to write about my weekend but took this long to, i'll have to write later. it's getting late and i've got calculus hw i've been putting off....i just had to wait until my mom got in bed to type this...cause i can only type in here when i'm alone..yeah, i know it's weird, but hey, i'm not doing anything bad on here or anything..just want my privacy while i type my personal thoughts. later~