well i had to work today..so i got up and got ready to find out i'm driving myself today. so i found the mapquested route..haha and i got there. i had only drove there once before. when i got there i found out the student i was supposed to teach was sick and he wasn't there so they didn't have anything else for me to do..so i observed again along with two other tutors that are new like me.

after the first tutoring session which is 50 min. they have this parenting on the run thing which is like a support group or something for all the parents who have dsylexic children which is most everyone in there. so on lady had me observe what one group of children do during that hour which is a class called social values. one of the ladies was reading them a story, asking questions and adding stuff in where appropriate, and it usually teaches them a moral of some sort. this week it was teaching them how to help clean up around the house..hehe...but then the other lady who sent me in there to observe asked me how i liked it when it was over...come to find out she wants me to teach one of those classes! i was kinda taken aback cause i really haven't even started the tutoring yet. i told her i'd be uncomfortable with that age group, cause they were like middle schoolers but i could do it with one of the younger groups. and she said that'd be great. so she wants me to observe a little more...then the next session is extra tutoring so this same lady took me and the other two new tutors into a room and was explaining a little more about the books and everything and what exactally to do. then the last 50 min. is another tutoring session which i again, observed.

so it was kinda boring today cause i really didn't get to do anything but next week the boy's supposed to be back and they still have me with him since he wasn't here today.

and then i went home...

it took me about half an hr to get there...so it should take half an hr to get home right...

only..

i got lost...

2 and a half hours later, i finally got home...

you see, my mom has me going a back way i'm unfamilar with and the streets aren't always labeled so i almost got home..only i went down the wrong street that would've took me there...but i recognized the street name that i was on, and i knew i could get home that way from it..only i didn't know how..and i didn't know that i didn't know how...but then i saw the expressway.

i knew i could take the exit to get home...only i didn't know which direction..east or west?

i really thought it was east....it was west.

you see when i go to counseling on that expressway i go east...so that's why east was in my mind...but i wanted to come home..

so then i find out where i am...cause i've been there before so there's another exit, i figured i could take the one i use to get to counseling, go all the way there and come back..and that was the B exit, but i really thought if i took A instead that would take me back home...then i dont' know what happened from there. i don't know if i could've got home or not. i was all confused..i ended up somewhere really far away...i know i was at least 45 min. away from home at some point cause i was in an area where i had been once before awhile back for some girl's birthday party..and i just remember it being really far so i knew i was going in the wrong direction..plus there were signs telling me how to get to the state capital..so maybe i was even further..who knows. i just know i kept getting turned around and ending up going down the same expressway three times in a row...and taking that same exit three times...i couldn't remember which way i still wanted to go east or west? i finally figured out..haha it's west, cause i remembered in the beginning i took east. by that time i was crying and going really really fast...cause i just wanted to get home, i didn't care about driving anymore or what happened...i thought it'd be great if i got pulled over cause then at least i might figure out how to get home. gosh, i wished i had a cell phone then. but i don't think my mom wouldn't been home anyways cause when i arrived home 2 hrs. late, she wasn't even there. anyways when i got home i checked how far i had gone since i took the wrong exit on the expressway, 100 miles!!! haha, i hate driving, i hate expressways. they are so confusing unless you have the right mapquest for where you are going..or if you know what direction you need to go from that point. oh yeah and for awhile there i was going down this really deserted road, almost like the country..it was weird.

i was so glad i got home..but right after i got home my mom did..and she and my dad started fighting..oh yeah and i did tell her what happened..and she said i should've called her. whatever. i woudn't have known where to pull over to get to a phone, and my whole goal was just to stay in the car and keep driving...but after i told her, she went upstairs and my parents started fighting. so for a moment i was glad that i was lost..cause even though it was an emotional diaster for me...it was also some time i had by myself..a long time by myself away from home..and i thought, wow it woud be nice just to drive and drive with no clue where i'm going...drive forever, get away from here...

now my mom's at some friend's house, she left after they got done yelling. she said she wasn't gonna stay here...blah blah..some bad stuff about my dad i can't remember..and she left...so me and my sister watched old full house espisodes and i fell asleep...and that was my day...

so i really need to be studying for my midterms which are next week..or my physics test which is tuesday (before midterms), or write my poem which is due monday..but i just can't do any of that now. i've had enough for today.
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