so last weekend was amazing...and i didn't have time to write about it til now since during the weeks i'm so busy..and when i'm not, i'm napping from exhaustion of college.

so last week, friday, my mom comes here with a friend of hers to pick me and adrian up...we didn't get to leave til about 5:30 cause i had to work at the library til 5 and adrian had a late class. so we stop by subway for dinner, yum! and we were off...we got home probably around 10:30, so it would have been shorter if we didn't stop to eat..but we did. so i got home, my sister was still up and she was very happy to see me. i wish i could say the same, i mean it was good to see her, but i don't really miss her. but don't worry, i didn't tell her that! so i unpacked all my dirty clothes, put em in the laundry (since i still don't know how to wash my own clothes!!! adrian's been doing it for me!) and i went to bed, fell right asleep.

saturday morning i watched "it takes too" with my sister. i was glad i woke up kinda early cause i knew i wouldn't get much time to spend with her over the weekned, and i didn't want her to get too upset over that. and i also was looking through the christian bookstore magazine and saw two cds that i wanted on sale for $7 and something..but the sale ended that day, so i asked my mom to get em for me, and she said that'd it be a bday present since she hadn't got one yet.

near 2, michelle came by the house and i was gonna follow her to devon's, where my bday party was gonna be. but when i tried starting my car, the battery was dead! so it was a good thing i didn't take my car to college. so i ride with michelle to devon's. i was so happy to see her and her kids riley and blake again. when we got to devon's, it was even more exciting for me. her kids carson and taylor were there. taylor is the oldest, she started talking to me right away and showing me things..which is funny cause alot of times she's real shy around me. and guess who else came to my party? christy and her kids hayden and sarah. so i had a blast. it was nice talking to michelle, devon, and christy again..and it was so fun to hang out with the kids.

after the party i was planning on going over to michelle's and since my car wasn't working, she told me i could just come over to spend the night. which was amazing cause that meant one night that i didn't have to spend at HOME! so we went back to my house, i picked up some clothes for church, and i left. so i was only home sat in the morning... we had pizza for dinner and tried watching a movie, i think it was called RV...it was pretty funny but i waas just enhoying being at michelle's again...and her kids. i slept on the couch and one of her dogs was sleeping right down on the floor next to me. that was disgusting. i hate dogs sooo much. and the dog was even snoring...i don't know how i got to sleep, but i did...cause i was still exhausted.

got up early on sunday morning cause michelle lives so far away from church. when we got there riley and blake couldn't stop telling ppl that i slept over their house with them, they were so excited. it was cute. i saw susan and greg again..and yes, i was hugging everyone, which i've kinda got more used to...which is good cause this is how it's gonna be every time i come back..and then leave again. so i went back to my 4 year old class..and saw all my kids again. amanda didn't come that service though cause she was bringing a friend. but they came 2nd service, right before i was to leave the classroom and go to the adult service. when amanda came in though she gave me a huge hug and just clung to me for at least 5 min. she just kept saying how much she missed me..and that just about broke my heart. out of all the kids...i think she was the one that truely missed me the most..and i can see why, cause i saw her almost every day in the summer when i was babysitting across the street from her. she's like my best little friend. and..that was just hard on me...seeing how much she missed me. so it took a little while to get away from her and go to the adult service, part of me didn't want to either, i wanted to stay there and i wished i could tell her that i didn't have to go back to college. she's only 4..she doesn't understand..she thought i was done with college already..but i went ahead to service and sat with jennifer and her husband. i saw alot of the other ppl from michelle and devon's small group. i talked to em all too, it was nice...and after church, i went back to the preschool hall like always and pretty much just hung out and said hi to all the kids that went by that i knew. everyone of them seemed excited to see me too. i talked to greg and he told me that anytime i wanted to come home, just tell him and he'd come pick me up which is extremely nice. he said no one should not be able to come home who wants to. so after church, well i had to go back home. jennifer told me i could come over her house that day, but she was busy right after church so she told me she'd call me.

so i had to be home for about 3 hrs. in between the end of church and before i went to jennifer's. and well, it was the same as always. ppl were fighting, there was screaming, and my parents were arguing. my sister had lots of hw to work on..so i just got on my laptop for awhile and saw how slow dial-up really is. i was missing this high-speed internet.

later on, i go over jennifer's for a little while before dinner, cause they were going out to eat..and i didn't wanna eat out. my mom told me she'd get papa john's anyways. so i hung out at her house like old times again..and i just couldn't believe how much more jacob was talking now..he just couldn't stop. i am missing so much of these kids growing up while being here.

after pizza, i go back over jennifer's cause well, there was nothing to do at home. i did call the other jen and talked to her a little, cause i didn't see her at church. i wish i had seen her and i talked to val some cause i only saw her at church but i didn't get the chance to talk to her. over jennifer's she was getting the kids ready for bed and she asks amanda is she wants mommy or daddy to put her to bed that night. she points over to me and says *i want rain_drop to put me to bed.* so i read to her and talked with her some more. she brushed her teeth and i said good night to her...good night and good bye once again. then jennifer and i went on one of our walks. it wasn't that long but it wore me out cause i'm not used to physical exercise here at college. adrian and i ran a few times, but that's it. sleep is more important to us...but that just gave me a chance to talk to jennifer some more, without the kids around. it was nice. we did stop by marlee's house, the kid i babysat in the summer, and i said hi to her and her mom...and well, after our walk...i had to say goodbye...again...

monday was the day we left...the day of my birthday. so yea, i'm 19 now and i still feel like 14 or something. but for my bday, my mom drove me back to college..oooh how fuN! but she did give me those cds. one is pettidee and the other is the new fm static cd. they are both awesome. so it took forever to get back to college cause there was traffic and we stopped at taco bell.

we got back here, my mom said goodbye and adrain and i unpacked, and crashed. i have gotten so used to my naps here, that when i went back home and didn't take any naps, well it wore me out. so it was a good thing i didn't have to work that night cause i slept for like 2 hrs. then we both woke up and had to do the worst thing ever, homework. yah, we were up late. we've been up late every day this week. it's crazy!!!

one thing i did learn from going back home and seeing everyone again..is that they are getting along fine without me, well maybe with the exception of amanda..but she's young, she'll be ok. sure the kids were very happy to see me, but they're happy like all the time anyways, cause their young. the only person it's really been hard on is me, and i'll get through this.

i have a picture of me, marlee and amanda on my background thing and i was just staring at it today and tears started spilling down my cheeks. some days it's gonna be harder than others..but that's probably the first time i cried over missing the kids since i've been back. there are other things that are going on right now that have me worried, scared, and because of this i've been physically sick to my stomach. and i'll write more about this later, hopefully...but i just wanted to write about my amazing weekend at home...but away from my home.