i hate this one...it was probably just something i scribbled down real fast. however i turned it into my background image....because i had a pix i took at michelle's house of her window and i thought it was cool...but i have another poem about rain_drops and tears..and windows...maybe i'll type that one up as well..someday. i plan to type and print all my poems out one day and put em in a book or something. i have so many of em..in so many different places...i'm not scared of em anymore..or ashamed. because they are a part of who i was...and am...and i've been writing poems for so many years throughout high school and now into college...but this one's only a year old...i wrote it April 13, 2006

Drops of Defeat

as the raindrops fall
outside my window
in step with the drops
falling down my face
wind whistling through the trees
thoughts flowing over me
memories and leaves intertwining
rain pelting the grass
which bows down in defeat
as the doubt and the fear
pushes me further down
wishing of what could have been
is like wishing for the sun
to shine through the thunderstorm
staring out the window
and watching the storms
of life pass through
only one way it seems
to make it through
just wait through the storm
the clouds will soon clear
and through prayer and hope
i will survive...
through the defeat...
just make it through the night