on wed. i was going over to jennifer's house where i was going to have dinner with her and her family. when i got there, there were a bunch of cars outside. i knew what was happening then. i got inside and right away kids started coming towards me giving me gifts and papers they had colored for me. jennifer had thrown me a going away party and invited my friends at church, the ones i have made this year. devon and her kids were there, amy and her kids, michelle and her kids, and the other jennifer who has the girl marlee that i've been babysitting for the summer. this was probaly one of the best days i've had. that night was focused on...ME! it was funny cause they kept joking about how they were going to leave and have me babysit all the kids...even little andy would cry every time amy went in the other room cause he saw me come in and he thought she was leaving. but the whole evening i felt so loved and appreciated. it was great...and then sat. i had to leave all that behind and come to a college 4 hrs. away...i don't know why..but i did need to get away from my family. the strange thing is i haven't cried since i got here yet...but i feel like i need to so my heart can stop hurting. i know, it's great here..but this morning adrian and i went to the church on the hill..but it's just not the same as the church back home. i miss the little kids..i haven't seen any little ones since last wed. chris is supposed to come here today and he said adrian and i can come to church with him next week. he told me they have an awesome children's program..idk. it's just not the same, it's just going to take some getting used to.

on the other hand, the ppl here seem so nice. it's so weird that i can say i'm at college already. it's weird, college kids are all around me. the RA's are nice though. i ate dinner with them yesterday and there's a girl down the hall who sat with us at church today..she's nice too..but i've never had friends my own age..i mean like real friends. they've always been older. so it's just weird for me. hopefully as the days go on though, i will get more and more used to it..but nothing can make me stop missing my church back home..and the kids that i love so very much. i think i might watch some full house now...a little michelle tanner to cheer me up a bit.

oh and btw..this high speed internet is the best thing ever...i really can't complain about that.