| i'm so sick of when they say, it's just a phase you'll be ok, ur fine..but i know it's a lie~skillet |
Jan 17th, 2007 3:03:34 pm - Subscribe |
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my arms burn.... ...the tears sting... and that's all there is to it. this struggle will always be a part of me...that's all there is to it... until i learn how to trust and love god again...until i really learn how to love god again..after all i've been through. hate fills my being..i am utterly alone...surrounded by people, but all on my own...feelings suffocate me...the tears they come...the marks on my arms...a reminder of the pain i hide inside....that will always be who i am. i can't hide it. i can't fight it. it is me. i am hurting, and i don't know what else to do...this pain is killing me...little by little....isn't it strange how i could make it through almost 4 weeks back at home, but i couldn't even make it 2 weeks back at college before it happened? i thought i loved this place....i thought i was getting better..i was deceived by the lies...the same lies that are slowly killing me... |
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broknangel |
January 17th, 2007 |
| Its funny how it runs through and through you head, always thinking "This could be so much better, I could be so much more" and yet it seems that it never will. It seems that every time things get better suddenly they get worse...It seems like the pain will never end. You can do it, you are stronger than this. I know exactly what you mean when you say you are surrounded by people but all on you're own. its a horrible feeling. I wish i could just make it all better |
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| anonymous |
January 18th, 2007 |
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| i love you... -Mary |
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emo_barbie |
January 19th, 2007 |
| thank you!! | ||
| anonymous |
January 20th, 2007 |
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| I hope you did ok with Cameron tonight...I miss you so much... | ||
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