sometimes i do try to be nice to ppl...the ppl i really don't like. and what happens, i just end up getting mad at them and wish i hadn't tried to be nice in the first place.

like tonight for example. i've been sick all day, i went to two out of three of my classes, which i thought was pretty good..so i've been napping and watching movies all night. our hall is having a game night in the lobby but i didn't wanna go cause i don't wanna be around all the ppl and the noise right now, while i don't feel so good. so then i get an IM from tiff and she's just asking what i'm doing and stuff..and i ask her why she isn't at the game night thing and she said something happened that wasn't that big of deal cause no one seemed to notice or something like that...so while i don't really like her that much, while i don't like being around her and talking to her and hearing her talk...and EVERYTHING....and while i still don't feel well...i ask her if she wants to come over to my room and play skip-bo and she said yes. then my roommate comes down to the room to talk to tiff and ask her why she left and talked to her and everything..and the next thing i know, tiff is leaving to go back upstairs to play games with the rest of the girls.......and i still wanna play skip-bo with someone, but i don't wanna go up there to all the ppl and all the noise..not tonight....and tricia is at work and mary left for the weekend..and as bad as i felt earlier, i'm kinda sick of laying around in my bed....oh well...my head is hurting again...i will write more later i guess...