"rain_drop, your paper's really good," *girl* said as she leaned over her desk.
ms. english teacher heard her and turned her head around, looked at me and gave me a big smile as she said "that doesn't surprise me at all" and she smiled some more.
i looked at *girl* and mumbled thanks or something like that and tried not to think any more about that paper. it's not just that, ms. english teacher has told me before that i'm smart...and asked if i was in ap last year..i told her freshmen and sophomore year i was in excel..and she said oh..and then asked if her class bored me..haha...i simply said no...what i didn't say is i think it's hard just like everyone else. ha. ok, back to today...

it's a personal narrative that we wrote and the rough draft was due today. i was going to type it like i was supposed to around 10:30 at night but my mom was on the internet and she didn't get off til 11. i have this cold or something, so i don't feel good at all, so i said forget it and went to bed. i wrote my whole rough draft in the morning during 1st and 2nd period. i tried to follow the format given, it's just so confining though. so my sentences end up turning out awkward. and my reflection doesn't fit right cause when the paper says *reflect here* and *narrate here* and oh *dialogue here* it just doesn't make for a good representation of my writing...that and the fact personal writing for school is so hard for me. knowing my peers will read it, my teacher will read it, and ppl i don't know will read it...well i have to pick *safe* topics to write about. this definitely wasn't one of the ones i would usually write about but i'm managing to get it to work. i decided to write about *a moment in time* when a kid came running up to me to say hi...it seems insignificant, yet it reassured me that i want to go into early childhood education..blah...sounds ok right? only the whole time i was writing it, i could not truly express how much happiness those kids have brought to me cause i can't describe the pain i've been through, that would make those kids so special. so i'm trying...but i knew my rough draft was terrible..i know when it's good and when it's not...and it needs work. mainly cause i wrote it so quickly in the morning and i still wasn't feeling good...the only problem now is i'll have to work a little on it tonight even though i still feel horrible cause ms. english teacher is now expecting a *great* piece from me...why do ppl expect so much of me...geeze..it's too much pressure...only i like her...i don't wanna let her down now. but i have a calculus and physics test tomorrow and i wish my head would stop pounding and my nose would stop running long enough for me to study a little for both of these. i had a government test today..there were only 12 questions. 7 were true/false..i hate those kind. i missed 2 of those...so i missed two questions on the test and got a C....give me more questions!!! who asks for more questions on a test???? i'm crazy.

i think the only class i'm doing really well in, besides easy ole latin, is statistics. we had a test today and it was so easy. i just hate how the teacher talks to us cause he talks like we're stupid or something..though maybe some of the kids are...if you say his name *mr. stats teacher* when you need help he'll either say stop yelling at me or quit hollering my name. he's so annoying sometimes...geeze

oh did i mention i made the math team? a total of 5 seniors tried out...3 seniors are allowed and guess who was 3rd place? me...yah, so the math team test was tues..and um....i think i got like 6 points on it...i don't know the most you can get but i know some ppl got in the 30s...i did bad. i don't remember anything from geometry and there was so much of that on there. there was only one question on there that i knew how to do from calculus...i guess that's cause not many high schoolers take calculus...oh well, better luck next time.

i also ordered a devo online that val told me bout. it just so happens it's what the *d-group* is doing now..experiencing god youth edition workbook. so i got that and i'm supposed to start reading it. i haven't told her i got it yet.

sunday i went to the christian bookstore cause cd's were on sale. so i got 4th avenue jones!! it rocks....it's awesome. the musik sounds completley different from any of the other rap i have...i guess cause one of the singers is a girl, so she sings....looonggg and drawnnnn outttt and raps too..get the pix? hehe..

and then on monday the first item i won on ebay came in the mail...hawk nelson!!! ahh i was so excited...it sounds just like fm static on alot of the songs and some even sound just like relient k. how come i never knew about this great band before??? love it!!

so i need to stop when the spending a little...my cd collection is spinning out of control...although i can't wait to get a pigeon john cd...cause i know only like 3 of his songs and they're awesome..k..enough about musik..oh wait, i was talking to adrian about musik the other day and she asked me to burn her a grits cd..so i did...i burned her the one with the *sippin some tea* song on it..it's fantastik.

i have been meaning to write all week about things but never got around to it..i've got so much to do..and i don't start my homework til really late...always excuses...like my excuse tonight is i'm blogging..haha..yeah, i was going to write about how emotional i've been this past week..then i remembered it's that time of month and i'm always like this..so forget that....it just me being a girl..like that ever happens..gosh i hate it.

amy's b-day party is this sat. and i still don't know if i'm going. it's in her area of town, obviously and since i live so far away from her i don't know where it is...so i got directions..now if i could just learn what they mean. maybe my mom could take me but she wouldn't want to pick me up at midnight when it's over. i though my mom was driving up to michigan tomorrow cause her grandmother's funeral is this sat. but she said there's too much to do, she can't leave now. my brother had a fever today and stayed home from school so she's thinking about taking him to the doctor. and sat. morning i have my SAT to take at who knows where? my mom maybe...and she knew my dad wouldn't have wanted to do either of those things. he wouldn't even take of work on friday..so she has decided just to stay here.

oh and with books...i started a book monday at school..and i finished it wed. afternoon...i loved it...the last time i finished a book of my own was back in september....so it was so nice to get back into reading..i'm hoping this will continue cause there's so many books i want to read..it's just i haven't been motivated..or maybe able to concentrate...or get myself off this computer long enough to read something. i don't know. but tomorrow i'm going to the library and i'm going to try get another book and read it. i will do it.

oh wow it's been so long i didn't even talk about the harvest party at church..that was so much fun. the kids looked so cute in their costumes..some of em thought i didn't know who they really were just cause they had a costume on...oh yeah....right before that i had to go to the psychiatrist again...which was pretty much a blow. he asks me the same questions every time...like where i go to school, where i want to go to college, if i'm in any clubs/sports...blah blah..and then he makes the same stupid jokes over again...i don't know...counseling is so much better than going to see him...oh well i don't have to worry about going back to see him for another what 6 weeks? is that it..i don't even know...

i have been trying to edit my myspace for this contest. krystal meyers is having a contest every week for the best krystal-fied myspace or something..in other words, i'm putting as much krystal meyers stuff on there as i can..it looks pretty neat right now..i have to add some banners though.. but i don't think i'll be able to do that tonight.

i'm so exhausted i'd like to go to bed now...it's not even 9 yet...but i don't feel like studying or doing any of it...ahh i feel another headache coming on...i'll go take another 5 min. nap before i start anything...i hope i can write again soon...it's been too long....it feels so nice...ahh..i love blogging~!