**i actually put this on my xanga the other day*** :/

Myriad Memories

in the dark depths, in the silence
i sit here...watching...waiting
engulfed in memories, haunted by the past
broken-hearted, shattered dreams
long, lost, lonely...solitude
here i wait, here You left me
alone, abandoned, lost hope
moments pass and tears they fall
pain wells up inside...consuming me
strangling me, i try to breathe
distant memories swirl in my head
i fall, spiraling, down into the dark
obsolete...nothingness of life
held on far too long, grip's wearing thin
indulging in my pain
my struggle...this fight to live
view on reality, on life...forever tainted
i crumble...too weak...i lay there
pull the covers around me
bury my head under my pillow
hiding the shame...and letting out the pain
seconds pass...then minutes...hours
lost track of time...engulfed and strangled
by this sickness i try so well to hide
until Death walks in and finds me here...