so i can't focus right on my hw right now..and i'm in the mood to write a poem, but the words aren't coming to me...so i looked through some of my old ones, one that sorta just scribbled out after getting mad at something val had said in d-group one day, based on some verse in the bible or something...and it's kinda funny...and sad that i feel a poem i wrote long ago still touches me today...i still feel the exact same way..and it makes me stop for a second and question myself..now how have i changed??

Moment in Time
by: rain_drop
April 10, 2005

you say the pain will last just for a moment
but i lay here every night lonely
sulking in my own misery
hoping, dreaming for relief, an end

you say the struggle will last just for a moment
and i hit my hand against my head every night
trying not to divulge in my self-mutilation
or thoughts of suicide, ending my life

you say the loneliness will last just for a moment
here i am, alone...by myself
not confident to hang out with people my age
but deeply hurting, dying from this loneliness

you say my life lasts just for a moment
a second, a speck of dust
i feel the pain, the loneliness, the struggle
never-ending, hurting me, killing my joy

in a moment this will all be gone
a moment i'll be gone, but then
will i have another moment to fix my life
because it seems like this moment lasts forever


and it does, it truly does...almost 2 years later and i'm still stuck in that one moment...still stuck...