So yesterday, i finally got to ride bikes with my new bike buddy. It was kinda far for me to ride over to her house, ride with her, and ride back home but we stopped by my friend V.'s house, so i got a little break. It was fun for both of us, i know esp. for me. But i can't explain how i really enjoyed the bike ride home by myself the best when it was even colder out and i was alone. Maybe that's it. It's something about how it clears my head...So it's really warm and sunny today so i think we'll go again but it's supposed to rain the rest of the weekend...

What else happened yesterday, oh i talked with my friend V. again and that was good but that's all i'll say about that. Then my mom yelled at me cause she found out i was on for an hr and a half which isn't long but maybe it is when you're expecting a phone call. Well, i guess "i forgot" isn't a good excuse. And then she told me to sit down, we have to talk. And i knew exactly what it was about cause she tried talking to me tues. night. She wants to know how i'm "feeling" and if i've been thinking any suicidal thoughts lately. Sometimes i wish i never told my counselor or that my counselor never told my mom because i really don't wanna talk with her. i know it's good that they know, but it's just so hard now. So it was only like 9:45 or something and i told her i had to go to bed, that i was really tired. And i was tired it's just usually i don't go to bed until around 11 so i got almost 8 hrs. of sleep last night. But she said we'd talk today, so i'm just not looking forward to that at all...Maybe she'll forget, but not likely...

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