it's a new year...a new me..a new chance at life...blah blah blah...

i'm sick of hearing that junk. so it's a new year now...big deal..now you just have to remember to write 2007 instead of 2006...

new year's resolutions? um no. dumb idea. if you wanna make a change or something like that...then do it. i tried last year. the one resolution i did make...the one i wrote down and promised myself i would keep....i almost did...it's not like others who break em in the first few months..mine lasted 11 months.....it was thanksgiving before i broke down and hurt myself..yup..i almost made it through last year..now this year? i really don't care enough to make that same commitment...it was too hard..what happens..happens..and that's the way things are going to go.

but hey, when i get back to school, things won't seem so bad..things will get better again..and so will my attitude...

so get over it for now..and accept this for who i am now....if writing like this makes me feel better...if this is a chance to just get some of my anger out...then so be it.....

on the other hand, i did have a good night last night...i was babysitting over michelle's and i only had to watch her two boys, riley and blake and another two girls, cali and baby rylie....now cali is my sister's age so she just kinda hung out with me..i can tell she totally looks up to me..sometimes it can be really annoying..but i played phase 10 with her and we had some fun..and baby rylie, well, she's a baby and though i'm not too fond of babies i always thought she was kinda cute...ok, really cute...but it's been months since i've seen her and since then she's learned how to walk....and scream her lungs out..yup...it was late and she was getting tired...

anyways at 11:30 i was pretty much done babysitting and the kids came upstairs with their families and we celebrated the great new year together.....and then everyone slowly left...and that was the night...i got online for awhile on michelle's internet...and then slept on the couch..it was 2 in the morning...the past few nights i've had trouble sleeping and it took me awhile to get to sleep..and i think i woke up around 8..i couldn't get back to sleep but i didn't get up til like 10...and got on the net again...the boys slept a good long time...and that was pretty much it..i hung around for awhile longer and then, reluctantly i had to return home..but my family was going over to my cousin's house..and i decided to skip out..so there they are, and here i am...all alone in the house..the way i like it...i had enough "people time" lately..i don't need any "family time"...

and so that's all for now...