sometimes i wonder when i'm going to finally crash and get some sleep. like today, i wake up 45 min. before i planned too...which means i only slept like 5 and a half hrs. last night and i could have slept longer...but i woke up. and now i can't go back to sleep but i'm so tired and i have a huge headache.

i don't even know why i'm writing..cause i don't feel like it, and i have nothing to say. nothing good anyways. and i'm not in the mood to write down everything that is getting me upset and angry right now..it's just too much. school is too much...people are too much. sometimes i do wanna go back to what it was like in high school, before i had friends and such...when i would just escape to the couch in the basement after school every day and take a nap..and watch tv...and then get on the computer for hours at night and escape into my world of online friends and talk to people i would never meet or have to see in my entire life...sometimes i just think how much better that was than this....but i know i'm lying to myself. cause i hated my life then..though i'm not sure i'm loving it any better some of these days...