free site statistics Things will get better...for rain_drop - sometimes i fall apart, i feel just like a useless tool~relient k


sometimes i fall apart, i feel just like a useless tool~relient k

Aug 11th, 2006 3:06:31 pm - Subscribe



the other night my mom and i came back from our walk to find the top of our mailbox on our driveway. someone ran into it but the pole didn't come out cause my dad put it in cement. my brother was sitting on the porch when it happened. a car went off the road, ran into our mailbox, and got right back on the road..didn't even slow down. the guy who hit our mailbox, lives four doors down from us. when our neighbor went to look at his car to see if it was damaged he saw the guy still in his car, passed out cause he was so drunk. my mom didn't want to call the police though cause she doesn't want to cause problems in the neighborhood...but this is the third time this has happened. first was years ago when our old car used to be parked there..someone ran off the road and totaled the car. the second time it happened my car was there...someone ran off the road and hit my car, running it into the mailbox. this time only the front light and side bumper was damaged..this time my car was parked on the other side of the sidewalk so it didn't get hit. but my mom told me it was probably ok to park it next to the mailbox, i refused and now i'm glad. it's not even like our cars are on the road even when we used to park them there. they have always been all the way in the grass so you'd have to go off the road to hit them. i'm so sick of this happening. it's always our mailboxes or our cars....i think my mom should have called the police cause this time we know who did it.

i finally called adrian too. we have two classes together i think and two that are at didn't times. but i guess we'll be together alot cause not only that but eveybody goes to chapel at the same time on tues, wed, and thurs. one thing i thought was funny is we both have our marriage and family class at 7:35 in the morning...i just think it's funny that we have to take that class now. my dad got a fridge the other day that has a freezer in it which i really like cause then i can get some hot pockets and ice cream to put in there.

i have exactly one week left here. i'm babysitting for marlee right now and autumn is also here. jennifer called me earlier and told me if i didn't have any babysitting jobs after marlee to stop by. she said she wants to spend some time with me before i have to leave. i've really started to think about this lately and it starts getting me really down. in a week i won't get to go over there, i won't get to see amanda and jacob...and all the other kids at church. i'm already missing them.

sunday after church i was supposed to go over michelle's, she wanted to cook me dinner and guess what?? spend time with me before i have to leave, but then she found out she had a birthday party to go too so she wants me to come over this sunday. i hope that works out.

not to mention this but thao, the girl from school was talking to me last night via aim and she wants to take me out before i leave. why does everyone put it like that?? anyways i haven't seen her all the summer but all of the sudden, now she wants to do something. i'd love to spend as much time that i can with the kids and things but i guess i can make some time for her. she wants to go to the movies tues, the day school starts for my brother and sister. but that day i have to go see my psychiatrist...one last time before i leave so that he can write me a bunch of prescriptions for my anti-depressants so i don't run out at college. ah..i don't wanna see him. but i guess i could go to the movies after that. she wants to go see pulse which is some new scary movie. i hadn't even heard of it but it's something i know i'd love to see and she also said she'd pay for my ticket...so i really don't have any excuse. except she's also meeting a guy from school there that i don't really even know but she seems to think that's fine...i guess i can deal with her for one last time and try to have fun..but she talked all about spending time with me at first..then she said she's also bringing some other guy, and it's not even her boyfriend..she just wants to see him too before he leaves for college.

yesterday i was babysitting marlee and the girls across the street, autumn and alexis and we went to the pool for like 4 hrs. which was a good thing cause those girls can fight sometimes so it was good to get them out of the house for a really long time. alexis saw a friend from softball there that she hung out with...marlee saw a friend from school and her neighbors that she stuck with. and autumn got to know jacob and mallory, two kids i know from church. when their mom left jacob and mallory asked to stay with us and i said it was ok. so yah, i had five kids to round up and get home when we had to leave. but it was really fun. i didn't mind at all. when i get older and stuff i would love to move into a neighborhood that has a pool cause it's so much fun for the kids and it's summer...it beats staying outside with them in the heat, you have a cool pool to jump into and cool off..and all their friends are always up there..it's really great.

so the reason i can be on my sweet laptop right now while i'm babysitting is cuase i'm on the couch while their playing polly pocket and i brought some of my full house episodes over for them to watch...cause they just happen to like full house too..isn't that great. autumn keeps asking to go to the pool but it doesn't open til noon and i don't know if it looks like pool weather out there now or not. i don't know.

speaking of full house...season 4 comes out august 15..and i plan to get it and try to watch all the episodes with my sister before i have to leave. i can't wait..i've watched seasons 1-3 sooo many times already i can't wait for some new ones..or ones i haven't seen that much. i love full house.

so anyways...blogging two days in a row...i'm doing pretty good huh? let's hope it lasts. well i think it's this laptop...it just may be.
mood: scattered
(2) rain_drops

avatar perfect110

August 11th, 2006

I hope the meeting with your phsy. goes well... do you think the pills have helped a lot? I keep debating whether or not to try them... I just don't know. I think it's great that so many ppl want to be with you before you leave and I think you should take advantage of it. I really hope things go well at college and that you will be able to meet a ton of new people. Love ya~ perfect~

aleaffalls

August 13th, 2006

I really don't understand why people are making that big of a deal about people leaving for college, it's not like we're moving to another country or something, we'll be back! But it is great to feel loved and missed. I'm starting college in about a week also and I'm so nervous! And it really sucks about your mailbox and cars. There are these boys that live down the street from me and I'm pretty sure that it's them who took all four of my hubcaps and my neighbor's CD player but we have no solid proof, so nothing can be done. People are just so stupid huh?


Image Verification: Verify Image

Posting as anonymous Anonymous guest, why not register, or login now.