i go home two weeks from tomorrow for thanksgiving break...i'm already worried about it..or at least i was until yesterday when jen emailed me asking if i could babysit for her towards the end of the week...so i have something to do on that friday..but that's a loooong way away...i just don't wanna be back at home with my family..college has got to be the best thing ever for me...getting away from the house, the family....i just don't wanna go back to that...don't wanna have to deal with that...don't wanna face it....hopefully i'll find stuff to do, places to be....get to see all my kids...

i'm so tired...my bedtime for the past week or so has been at least 2...last night i fell asleep around 3:30 cause i took a 4 hr. nap earlier...today i won't have a chance to nap.

i got my krystal meyers "dying for a heart" cd yesterday in the mail...i love ordering stuff online and then having packages to pick up...everyone back home keeps telling me they're working on a package to send me..or they will..or something..and i've only got one..and that was from someone i would not have thought would send me one.

i've been tryin to call michelle for awhile now, i don't remember the last time i talked to her...she called on sat. and left a message for me..i was out seeing the greatest movie ever "cars"...but i was so disappointed that i missed her call..and i keep trying to call her back, but she's never home....and that's just really starting to upset me...i mean i have my friends her and everything...i can hang out with em, talk to them....have sleepovers..whatever...i have the best weekends here too...but i still wanna talk to my friends back home. i talked to jennifer recently but not for long cause she's busy too....while i don't wanna go home..to be at my house...i wanna go back to see my friends..and just talk with em like i used to...