pretty little liars
Date: Dec 8th, 2010 4:06:53 am - Subscribe
Mood: icky

sometimes you really have to do what you have to do to get through.

but God it's painful.

but it is the truth for sure.

"So how did you end up here?"
"I spend most of my life in paradise and thought I'd try a few years in hell."

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Club can't even handle me right now...
Date: Nov 7th, 2010 9:47:49 am - Subscribe
Mood: comfortable
Today's Grade: A. not gonna lie. :P

Well, this weekend.

1. Jgirl's 21st. Lots of drama, none of which I was involved in. GREAT TIME! haha happy.gif

2. Dreamed about him even though I'm way over it. Blaming C entirely. still nice though. didn't get that Notebook feeling.

3. Saw him for an hour. No progress? I hate everything about the dating process. P.S. Either dreamed about yelling about how much I hate the dating process or really did it....not sure which.

4. Made out with his friend! wuddup.

Now, practice and work. oyy. which means homework. and making phone calls. I hate making phone calls....
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exhibit A
Date: Nov 3rd, 2010 12:58:11 am - Subscribe
Mood: happy
Today's Grade: :)

We talked for like 2.5 hours tonight. By the end, I was a popsicle and I still have all my homework to do. But you know what? Some things are totally worth it. That's my favorite part about college is realizing that: Sometimes, things are worth putting everything else on the back burner and just having a good time.

On the other hand, possible bad news? I don't want to be in D.C. by myself next fall!! Oy.
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What do you say to taking chances?
Date: Oct 31st, 2010 8:05:22 pm - Subscribe
Mood: quiet

What the hell am I doing?

Better yet, what the hell is happening? What is going to happen?

I'm afraid of messing something up that doesn't even exist.

I'm afraid of always being content. I'm afraid of not being surprised. I'm afraid of the typical, of things working out the way I expect them to.

I'm afraid that He is not listening.
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I've never been in love, I've only been in clubs...
Date: Oct 28th, 2010 8:09:58 pm - Subscribe
Mood: pensive
Today's Grade: A

Do you think that things really do ever work out when you really want something? I've wanted this so long, that I feel like I've become comfortable just living in my own imagination. Not content, but quite comfortable. It's a familiar place to dwell....a safe place.

Sometimes I feel like it won't happen because of how happy I'd be. Because I'm not supposed to be that happy. That sounds a lot more sad/angry than I want it to be, because it's not something I get upset about, it's just something I think about.

I think I'm too idealistic, but there's nothing else I'd rather be. I'm a real believer in life, love, hope, struggle, pain, tears, happiness, and joy. I believe with all my heart that there is so much to get out of life no matter what is happening.

But I want to experience this one thing. Because I think it will be the most exciting, worthwhile ride of my life.

I know there's a reason. There HAS to be a specific reason. I just hope this waiting pays off. It would be wonderful if it paid of sooner rather than later. But I know myself, and I'm not strong enough to go 100% for it. But I like what I'm doing now. And we'll see how that goes.

Just for the record, I DO really hope it works out this time...just want to make that clear, so maybe my keystrokes will reach God's ears haha
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