Home / Profile / Friends Pestilential Mar 3rd, 2004 - Subscribe Today was a lovely day, perhaps the first hint of springtime... Blue sky, chirping birds, comforting rays of sunlight. But a looming black cloud, once seemingly inessential, loomed in the distance. And, before too long, it rained. Nature provides for the best unintended metaphors. I wish I didn't disgust myself. Is it normal be filled with such internal antagonism, the impending venoms of mood, the apathy toward my own benevolence? I also wish that I wasn't a burden to my parents. I wish they would stop caring so much... for they get hit with the unintentional backlash of my self loathing. I don't want to be their crazy daughter, the messed up progency. The despicable darling, the strange scion. I wish they weren't so obliged to caring for me, because I don't want anyone to hurt but myself. I'd just like to be alone... 0 comments Image Verification: Anonymous guest, why not register, or login now. /