rburton76's Blog

coffeed into dysphoric lucidity
Date: Apr 13th, 2008 11:58:28 pm - Subscribe
Mood: hesitant
music: The Rolling Stones - "You Can't Always Get What You Want"

The omission that shines so brightly that it begs not to be given voice, but rather painted red with shame, the unsettling omission that lends an aspect of nullity to my existence, the freakish, jaundiced dementia that brooks no respite save in work and sleep, the defining aspect of all I am and will become. It bounds me. I am closed and bounded by a serpentine labyrinth of fear. Without hope, without solace, without love.

And the unsettling lie that birthed it all, the lie that haunts my nights, obfuscates my better motives with a sheen of apathetic hope, the lie that decimated my life with the apocalyptic efficacy of an atom bomb, leaving a shattered mind peopled with cannabilistic phantoms. In sorrow, I cannot escape it. In anger, I cannot forgive it. In the endless nights, where once the darkness hid more than has been dreamt of by gods or men, I see only the barrenness of my own soul.
Comments: (3)

qman - April 14th, 2008 Excellent prose. You /are/ sure you're drinking coffee and not smoking something else, right?

anonymous - April 14th, 2008 I agree with "gman." What on Earth are you smoking? But seriously, I wish I had your writing technique!

gravitate - April 15th, 2008 IS THAT THOSE ANTI PSYCHOTIC DRUGS YOU ARE ON? good luck in undergrad and grad school. i have one more semester and i will have my masters. grad school isnt that bad, just tons of reading and writing. the content is interesting so it makes it worthwhile.

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