rebelheart's Blog

sweet escape
Date: Jan 14th, 2007 4:51:34 pm - Subscribe
Mood: sane



single again

the freedom that i haven't had since i graduated high school. HOLY SHIT!

im glad it was mutual.

on the otherhand.....i'm glad i get to go to OK.

looks like maybe Joe and I will finally work out.

after fucking years of waiting...lol
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a girl like me
Date: Jan 5th, 2007 5:07:33 pm - Subscribe
Mood: industrious
music to listen to: girl like you-edwyn collins


i'm in a funk.

i've had a cold for almost 2 weeks and its kicking my ass.

not only that, but all of my family and my friends have been telling me the same thing....gee, its not like this is the most depressing time of year...and i still haven't found out if i have financial aid yet.

i'm pissed, i'm tired....and i'm frustrated....because someone is telling me one thing and my head and heart are conflicting on it.

and.

i'm tired.

someone sweep me off my feet please.
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what the hell
Date: Nov 12th, 2006 4:01:05 pm - Subscribe
Mood: frisky



i don't understand guys...men in general

they say somethings and do another and i just don't understand why they would do something to jeopardize a relationship

he's going to thanksgiving with me...i guess i'm nervous about my family because they don't like the situation that i'm in

it seems like ben is teeing off to one of his friends

i just want a little face time after all week i've been working and so has he

is that too much to ask for?

I DONT FUCKING THINK SO.


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the new place
Date: Aug 17th, 2006 12:20:05 pm - Subscribe
Mood: at peace



i can't believe i'm actually on my own. i mean even though i'm with ben, it feels like its just me.
all these things have changed, and i love him more than anything! but it still seems almost surreal that fate has brough us to this point. that i'm actually doing what i want to do for a change. and i shouldn't let little fancies get in the way of the great thing that i have. reading someone's blog today helped me realize that God has blessed me with ben. and none of us are perfect, its just what we do with the things that we are given that make us who we are.



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how to save a life
Date: Jul 29th, 2006 2:08:01 pm - Subscribe
Mood: saddened and scared



ok...things will be tight for a while

last night i was so scared.
i was scared that i was going to lose the one man that ive really given my whole self to.

lots of saving money and working...last night was a wake up call.

i don't want to lose him
my family understands that now.

i get my stubborness from them...but my grandma is going to help me by giving me things for the apartment.

and he's coming up tonight...i don't know what i'm going to do...i know he's still mad at me...

and i understand that. i've been acting really immature and irresponsible....all the things that my mom has been telling me that i've been acting...

i just wish i could go back to being the person that i was in high school

that person really had a head on her shoulders.

"who do you think you are? hahaha bless your soul...you really think you're in control?"
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