rebelhearts Aeonity Blog

things sure have changed

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 19:54:59 -0500

i had no idea a person could change so much. i really regret sending that email...but i felt provoked. i just want things over with and resolved. maybe a hug too. and to curl up in a ball and never wake up. well...maybe to wake up to a hug and some comfort.... Read More

here i stay

Fri, 09 Feb 2007 16:37:32 -0500

so im staying in Oklahoma. i found a job at the Santa Fe Cattle Co. down here...as a watiress...i start on monday. i can't believe i did it. i guess everyone is disappointed in me. except for me. i'm proud of myself. i'm proud that i have the balls to do what i'm doing. i don't think there is anything wrong with that.... Read More

"like where i grew up"?????

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 13:04:21 -0500

wow. Oklahoma is sure not what i expected it to be. But i love it! Mostly, yeah, its flat as a fucking pancake, but still...it kinda reminds me a little of central Minnesota...only without all the trees. i'm extremely happy here. Everyone is friendly (with the exception of stupid drivers down here...trust me they are abnormally beyond the... Read More

YEE HAW!

Thu, 01 Feb 2007 00:31:57 -0500

i'm going to OKlahoma.... FINALLY hopefully it will work out so lets be nice and cheer for me.... Read More

the free saturday

Sat, 27 Jan 2007 20:11:04 -0500

who loves fall out boy?? i sure do. angry lyrics to such catchy music. its been one of those emotionally exhausting days....fuck...i thought i was totally over those can't wait for the day i can go home and kick back with a beer and bitch about my day with someone who understand emotional bullshit ever had one of those days where you ... Read More

sweet escape

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 16:51:34 -0500

single again the freedom that i haven't had since i graduated high school. HOLY SHIT! im glad it was mutual. on the otherhand.....i'm glad i get to go to OK. looks like maybe Joe and I will finally work out. after fucking years of waiting...lol... Read More

a girl like me

Fri, 05 Jan 2007 17:07:33 -0500

i'm in a funk. i've had a cold for almost 2 weeks and its kicking my ass. not only that, but all of my family and my friends have been telling me the same thing....gee, its not like this is the most depressing time of year...and i still haven't found out if i have financial aid yet. i'm pissed, i'm tired....and i'm frustrated....becau... Read More

what the hell

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 16:01:05 -0500

i don't understand guys...men in general they say somethings and do another and i just don't understand why they would do something to jeopardize a relationship he's going to thanksgiving with me...i guess i'm nervous about my family because they don't like the situation that i'm in it seems like ben is teeing off to one of his friends ... Read More

the new place

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 12:20:05 -0400

i can't believe i'm actually on my own. i mean even though i'm with ben, it feels like its just me. all these things have changed, and i love him more than anything! but it still seems almost surreal that fate has brough us to this point. that i'm actually doing what i want to do for a change. and i shouldn't let little fancies get in the way o... Read More

how to save a life

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 14:08:01 -0400

ok...things will be tight for a while last night i was so scared. i was scared that i was going to lose the one man that ive really given my whole self to. lots of saving money and working...last night was a wake up call. i don't want to lose him my family understands that now. i get my stubborness from them...but my grandma is goin... Read More