confused
Date: Nov 2nd, 2005 9:53:40 pm - Subscribe
Mood: defeated
well i think i found my answer. we as a society dont care about anyone but ourselves! thats y nobody follows the examples of good and caring people. well think about it, we all know mother teresa and martin luther king jr mahattma gandi. how many of us try to follow in those footsteps? it is my belief that if they knew the world they would have comited suicide! the world is still plagued with racism,crulety,injustice and hunger. with a rare few shallow "socialy" motivated exceptions they are ignored or used as fodder for comedians! im beggining to see that in this world of hate and violance, that those are the true meduims for communication. after the comlumbine incident people actually were moved to action. not all right or resonable but action nonetheless!
those troubled youths and their actions are still the topic of many a discussions. so i guess im wondering if i shouldnt use pain cruelty and suffering to motivate people into action. maby it is better to use what people understand and are motivated by FEAR, to send a message. would that make me what i hate or would it be a good man using a bad medium?
please comment i want feedback thx
-M-
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disheartened
Date: Oct 25th, 2005 10:46:02 pm - Subscribe
Mood: abandoned
thx all for the input it has helped some. im still downhearted i feel like a man who has run a marathon the wrong way. im tired, in pain, and PISSED, but im not sure who to be mad at. is it me for haveing faith in a faithless world, or is it those who dawn faith as a guise . a mask to hide behind,a suit that fits only on certen occasions. this shakes my faith in humanity(if it can still be called that for the most part) or in myself for holding true to my moral code, my belief in friendship and loyalty. it may well be my perception, but as i see myself i see me helping my feiends and family without hesitation or reservation, but i see no one trying to do the same for me.with two exceptions. all i look for is a simple "can i help" or an "are u ok" but i with two exeptions never seem to find it. im still tempted to say F.T.W. and become that ferile creature i once was but it seems wrong. the funny part of that is that's my moral code talking, the one im contemplateing killimg. wow! well thats it for now.
more to come. input more than welcome requested.
-M-
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my first entry
Date: Oct 24th, 2005 3:49:08 pm - Subscribe
Mood: abandoned
well this my first time blogging.it is an attempt to get feedback so dont b shy! im at an impass in my life. i live by an ancent code of conduct and morals. but it seems im out of date. im wondering if i should stop ? as corny as it may sound, i do onto others i always help when i can even if it puts me out. i give all i am to my others without thought of reward or thanks. but it seems that all i get are ppl trying to use and exploit my kindness. it seems that todays values are, I need I want and to hell with the guy i step on to get it! and im tired of trying to lead by an exanple it seams noone will follow. but it's who i am. im at an impass. im not sure what to do. i could drop 90% of my human contact and b a virtual hermit, i could become like others and just take and think of myself? im a little lost atm and i need other points of view. thanks more to come.
-M-
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