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Jan 23rd, 2008 12:56:54 am - Subscribe

I just got home from Thailand. Exceptional, exquisite, unforgettable. Phuket, Bangkok. Changed my life.... beautiful.

I'm exhausted. See you soon.
mood: copacetic
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where do i live

Jan 4th, 2008 12:34:19 am - Subscribe

Back home now. YEAH ARIZONA!!!

I swear I never wanted to be one of those women who was like, "Oh my boyfriend this.... my boyfriend that... blah blah blah fiance...blah blah wedding." Grrrr.

So I just got back from Florida and I had a blast... it was great seeing everyone and after a series of painfully depressing and lonely and shitty New Years' parties, it's tremendous to be able to have fun and whatnot.

So I made a couple of irrational decisions after having a few drinks. Alcohol renders me rather malleable, I can't lie. So the first thing was... wait, this happened at JJ's New Year party near the beach...we were there about an hour and me and the man found a quiet place so I could blow him. And I let him take pictures of me blowing him with his camera phone. I have ALWAYS been really against photos/video for obvious reasons. It's way too dangerous. But I am one of those people whose judgement is impaired by booze.

Okay, wait, doesn't everyone's judgement get impaired by booze? And furthermore, don't I trust him?

So in other news, Mark's been pretty impatient about the wedding (2009) and has been asking why we have to wait like, 2 years. And really, the more time you have the better and what is the rush already?

And at the party I was looking at the decorations and the year "2008" and I was thinking, wow, I'm so glad I'm getting married in 2008 because 8's a good number for me. But then, duh, I am so stupid because I set the date for 2009. During the countdown I made up my mind... I don't know, i got overwhelmed, I blacked out? And I thought, fuck it, stepped outside because it was so noisy inside and everyone's screaming and blowing fucking horns and I said I changed my mind. Yes I'm sure. And even the next morning he asked me again, are you sure.

I've always been pretty irresponsible so whatever. I moved it up by a whole year and now I have til October 25th 2008 to get the thing in the can. i can do it and you know why?

I'm not doing a lot of flowers, I only want my sisters to stand up for me and they can wear whatever they want. I'm not getting married in a church or in some retarded gazebo. I'm NOT doing a traditional wedding. I don't even know if I'm going to wear a wedding dress. My family knows me and I know they don't care what I do as long as I'm happy.

And I'm keeping the list small.

I secretly love Florida, too.
mood: sneaky
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Dec 27th, 2007 2:36:02 pm - Subscribe

I got a phone call from one of my few friends in Arizona today, AnnaMaria. And it is official: she is throwing a "Underpants On Your Head" party in a couple of weeks. Basically, you have to wear underpants on your head or you can't come in.

I vaguely remember her talking about this, but we were both sort of drunk and I thought she was kidding. I can't wait. I really need to meet people who aren't stupid rich assholes.

Have I mentioned lately how much I hate Scottsdale? Because I hate it. Love Arizona, hate fucking Scottsdale. And I have to live there.

So I'm home right now for a few days before Florida. And it's so good to see everyone!! I had a good time last night, even though PR was a repeat. But there really is no place like home, even if it is for just a few days.

So, yeah, I'm going to a party and I have to wear underpants on my head. I'm gonna go for some granny panties for maximum comic effect. I guarantee a lot of guys are going to be wearing lady panties.

AnnaMaria said she's going to try and do a theme party like once a month. Like they did back in the sixties. Are they coming back in style? I don't know.

I think a bunch of us are going out for Chinese but I'm not sure yet. Bye!!!
mood: worthless
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i wanna rock with you

Dec 25th, 2007 9:41:34 pm - Subscribe

Okay, I have a little time now.

I have to say that this was one of the all-time greatest Xmas's I have ever had. i am so happy right now...

It's even better because I've had such a shitty week. I just found out my neighbors hate me. Yes. Apparantly, my going out of the way to be sweet and friendly has not endeared me to them and they left a note in my mailbox that said "WHORE go back where you came from". Yes. I can laugh about it now... I mean, how freaking cheesy. But I can't lie. I was very upset. I guess I never get used to the fact that people can hate you for no reason. But I was ALWAYS pleasant to everyone I saw. So that really, really hurt my feelings.

And then the other night, I don't know. I was watching TV and James Taylor was singing "Sweet Baby James" and I just. Started. BAWLING. It reminded me of home, of snow, of Christmas in New England. I know it's corny... it really is. So what? I never pretended to be cool.

Also, John F called me a few days ago and he was asking me how things were going, specifically at the gym and stuff. And I was all, yeah I'm doing a lot of legs.

Wrong answer! And he NEVER gets mad or upset and he had a minor flip out and said, NO!!!! You're supposed to be doing XYZ with alternating W and we discussed this!!! And I swear, I do not remember going over that. All I could do was apologize and promise to start right away with the different program. He e-mailed me the information and maybe I'm losing my mind but I do NOT remember any of that stuff.

So long story short... I am going to THAILAND for 2 weeks next month. And that means I am not going to Puerto Rico this year. But who cares? I'll be in Phuket and Bangkok and whatever else I feel like doing. I've never been to Asia and I've always wanted to go to Thailand!!! So Merry Christmas, me! I cannot fucking wait.

Tomorrow I'm flying home for a few days and then onto Florida to stay with Mark's family and celebrate New Year's. In Florida. I think it'll be a lot of fun and it'll be great to see everybody.

mood: inspired
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a little late

Dec 17th, 2007 10:37:39 pm - Subscribe

We're going to get a tree tomorrow. We really don't have any ornaments so for now we're just gonna buy a box of balls or something. Good enough, right?

Plus multi-colored twinkle lights, glorious and tacky.

Last Christmas I went home and Mark went to visit his family in Florida. Early on Christmas eve I realized I missed Mark too much and I managed to fly down to Florida and surprise him (his brother's fiance helped me). It was such a great night! I met so many of his friends from home for the first time... we all went to this bar and stayed there late, just hanging out. Everyone was so nice.

The only thing was at the bar I was so paranoid that someone was going to say "So, when are you two going to tie the knot?" or something awkward like that. And at that point we had never ever discussed marriage. Fortunately, it didn't happen, but I realized that I had to bring it up at some point, especially because we were living together. Natural progression, right?

We spent Christmas with his family in Florida then we flew home... there was a tree up in the house, all decorated... as a surprise. He'd done it after I flew home. And for my gift he'd had someone take pictures from my hometown. They were framed and hanging in the hallway. Beautiful professional photography. It meant so much to me because he knew I was getting homesick. So yes, I cried. I was so happy that day.

It's not the same in Arizona. Only the decorations give it away. No scarves or snowflakes, no ice skating or frosty air. Oh well.
mood: ashamed
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