Gray times.
Date: Sep 29th, 2006 9:15:08 pm - Subscribe
Mood: out there
This was on my mind so I decided to post it. A little something I came up with. If its not my original work, I apologize. I have just been doing some re-evaluating with my life and where I stand right now and this happened along.
"They say life is a journey. And you learn throughout life that the journey is more important than the destination. But at the same time, if you had no destination... would your existence be meaningless since you never embarked upon a journey to define a set point that you could call your final destination? And then you have to ask, does your journey really ever reach the so-called destination? How does one define a destination? Personally I think the original quote is bullshit. Life is a journey true. But the journey being more important than the destination is ludicrous. Your "journey" per se could not exist if there was never a destination. Sure you can wing life by the horns, but is it really a journey if you allowed life to just aimlessly toss you about in the wind? The idealogy behind the previous question is the quote "To control your life you must have no control over it." Which I believe is a tough belief in itself. There are many outlying factors you must consider. Do you control anything at all if there is predestined fate? Is your life your own to control if there is a higher power? If we are just 'dust in the wind' then survival of the fittest would control you, correct? I guess what I'm saying is (maybe another classic 'off-on-a-tangent' justin quote)...Maybe you do not have control of your life to make a destination. Your journey is a facade behind the ideals that you want to believe you have control of something in this world where you control nothing at all. Do people not feel more comfortable when they believe they have control of something, either something small as a animal all the way up to the grand portrait that is life? Lets say GOD stopped by for a small visit and took away your freedom of choice. You have now lost all control over something you probably didn't have in the first place. Or lets say human beings became enslaved by another super being. Pandemonium would ensue. Heres a stressed point I guess. I could sit here right now and set a destination for myself, which according to the quote, this is irrelevant. Now my life is judge from here to that destination. That would prove the worthwhile of my life even if I'm the judge, the jury, and the excutioner of that thought, or if someone else was. Now is the problem. I fail to reach that destination I strived all my life to strive for. Again was my life and all the attempts to reach what I thought possible in vain? The self-help people are probably reading this thinking... "wow he can't join our meetings" but thats beside the point. My question of main concern is... Is it worthwhile to set a destination and classify an entire life span (which is just a spec of dirt on a beach) on how I arrived/attempted to reach my goal? or is it not more enticing to resign from my position as control of my destiny? A point I forgot to touch. If you believe in predestined fate...sorry but you control nothing of this thing we call life. Its all laid out for you. All you can do is lay down in the corner and accept it. So heres what I say. Set goals for yourself but don't spend every waking minute of your life trying to receive a title you won't see, for when you reach your destination you won't have time to enjoy it. Make life what you want it to be. I'm not going to tell you some happy quote to end on, because f' it. Life ain't peachy. Its a big convoluted cloud of beliefs, ideas, rights, and wrongs. Spend your time on this earth how you want to. And me personally, I prefer the life of no absolute rights and wrongs, winners and losers, love and hate. The gray area is where the best times come from. So here my friends, is a cheer to the gray area."
Again, this is very random, I know. I won't even read back over it. Instead I will post it in its entirety straight from the hip. No edits whatsoever. I don't enjoy editing my writing, because I think its more in-depth when you contradict yourself, say things people won't agree with, and have it all out of order.
Again I wrote this when my head was kinda cloudy and as usual my ending is the same. I leave my disclaimer here. "I apologize to no one, for anything written in the above text. If it offends you, then I hit my mark."
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