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reverie Another test... - Subscribe
you are mediumauqamarine
#66CDAA

Your dominant hues are cyan and green. Although you definately strive to be logical you care about people and know there's a time and place for thinking emotionally. Your head rules most things but your heart rules others, and getting them to meet in the middle takes a lot of your energy some days.

Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it.

Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up.
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Mood: moodless

reverie Happy Mar 17th, 2005 7:52:09 am - Subscribe
Juz realised im temperamental...the last few blogs were all fluctuatuations! well the strange thing is, i was so tired when i turned in so i expected myself to be grouchy the next morning as i usually am but i was actually happy and chirpy this morning! was wondering if my mum had prayed for me or smth... everytime she prays, sumhow things work out or seem better. The power of prayer..
Im happy coz i decided not to let the work and proj and all get to me...went out today and bought a new skirt at Ebase happy.gif shopping therapy works on me, i hate to admit... tounge.gif
Shall read my notes on race later..realised race and ethnicity is smth that pervades the everyday- u cant avoid it. I came back from race lect today and on the way home my fren n i were talking bout the politics bet diff ethnic gps like malays, indians and chinese. then when i got home, the tv show was on a black cleaner being accused of rape he didnt commit. i got so agitated juz seeing the injustice i cldn watch anymore...
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Mood: uplifted

reverie Today Mar 18th, 2005 3:53:49 pm - Subscribe
Today::
/a tiring but fulfilled day
/tutor called on me during class, i embarassed myself by asking him to repeat the question which i still didnt und
/got a bit irritated by my fren who keeps asking me for tissues, water, paper etc everytime we meet.. asked me to keep her fren's notes for her even! i declined...
/she not only got on my nerves but another close fren also complained bout her insensitivity..we three are working on a proj toge so keeping fingers crossed for a gd working relatnshp
/was touched to recieve emails and sms fm frens whom haven kept in touch for some time happy.gif friendship is a balm to the soul...
/checked out the SFF site, hope have $ and time to watch some films..
/its 5am local time now..why am i awake at this unearthly hour? co i slept at 7pm 18 Mar meaning to take a nap but woke up 6 hrs later at 1am instead! so..
/im wide awake now, checking mail, blogging and charging my beloved iPod, MiNi
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Mood: wide awake

reverie juz kill me Mar 23rd, 2005 1:05:40 pm - Subscribe
today i wished tomorrow never came...
its not juz the heavy workload, its having to deal with pple, the same pple who claim to be ur frens n yet hurt u, church pple who hurt and sadden...

got so pissed at XX... i really wonder if she has any love for her frens. So far, she only 'takes' and doesnt 'give'. Even when working with her, she is lazy n we have to cover up her sloppiness and mistakes.. juz feel so tired.. and when i needed a listening ear, juz realised my fren cant be bothered...

was at church today and after a waking up call by Reg, i tried to change for the better, but it hurt me to see that the team was doing exactly what Reg said NOT to do. This is the Lord's hse, not ur hse, dun treat it as a casual plc where u do what u like... and there they were, chatting and trying to read while doing worship for Him.. juz felt so alone in this, am i e only one in this plc who sees the hypocrisy of it all? im not perfect but i juz dun want to always be the one being aware or sensitive .. i dun always want to be the listener.. i dun want to be always the 'detailed' and 'prepared' one. i feel so tired.. i wish i was lazy, insensitive and heck-care.. then i wun be hurt by pple's insensitivity or have to think so much details only to be taken for granted...
they say God gives each one unique gifts..if these are my so-called gifts, i'd rather God take them away... they are like a double-edged sword, cutting me up at times...
so many things to do..essays/church cell/church admin...what is life all about? work?
where is rest? where is peace?where is joy? i really wish i were dead.. the phy n emo issues are so tiring...
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Mood: dead

reverie A New Day Mar 25th, 2005 7:39:50 am - Subscribe
Had an arg with XX yest (24 mar thur) over the proj. I came home fm church at ard 11pm n was so tired but still had to edit my part in the proj b4 sending it 4 printing. When i looked thru the entire thing, i realised she had done sloppy citations n actually left out 2 sources in the biblio.. she claimed to have taken a 'small' bit fm my part but when i checked, it was 4 quotes! our essay is not that long so how can taking 4 quotes fm my part be 'little'?? was pissed already coz o all this... so i sent her a curt sms asking her to send the missing stuff so we can print asap. Apparently she didnt like my 'tone' in the sms n called me to ask why i was so curt. Well i told her she was supposed to have completed her part but it was incomplete n i had to edit her citations for her! she got mad, saying i shd have told her earlier... hellooo its not an indiv essay where u do what u like, its a proj so all shd stick to a standardised format.. apparantly she thought it was alrite to submit an essay with very diff formatting in it. AFter some more heated words, she hung up rudely.. i was mad coz in my opinion, she was at fault for giving sloppy work n leaving out sources n yet she was shouting and even hung up on me..

my other fren in the proj settled the printing issue and then called me to tell me. feel abit guilty but the both o us then bitched bout her coz although we didnt say it earlier, we both were subtly annoyed at her passiveness, laziness and selfishness.. we lent her a whole sem's worth of lect notes but when we needed notes for 1 week, she said she cldn find them... n it was always us who offered to zap notes, email lecturers, buy food etc - she juz kept quiet passively... sighhh.. i pity my fren, she's gonna be stuck with her another year for honours while i grad soon..


anyway.....
After the argument with my fren, i decided to go online shopping and bought a new fragrance- Escada's Rockin Rio! hope to get it soon.. i thot i'd be mad for some time but about 2 hrs later i was Happy happy.gif didnt know why, juz felt happy with my life, surrounded by pple i love and having so much more than i'll ever need...

Later in the evening, guess what? She sms-ed me saying she was sorry.. wow i didnt expect that from her, coz she sounded so unreasonable and angry.. well so i replied saying i was sorry too. So i guess its over, even though i know things wun really be the same. Given her char, she'll def not let it pass w/o any change in behavior to me.. whatever... i was thinking - this is my last sem in sch anyway and aft knowing her i really dun think her frenship is worth keeping... why in the world would i want an exploitative and spoiled person ard me...
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Mood: cheery