Evil
Date: Apr 20th, 2005 10:17:11 am - Subscribe
Mood: evil
Hahaha... Im in an evil mood... was juz bitching with my sis bout our family politics n how some pple in the family do things that seem neutral or good on the surface but actually do it for less-than-noble reasons..i spilled the beans on why they did what they did...evil right, n guess what i dun feel guilty at all. Been so short-tempered recently, been blowing my top at some incidents over the last few days... Hope stress is not the excuse, somehow there always is some excuse for bad tempers..
maybe i juz feel like being bad...not like im an angel in the first place but i really cant hold my temper these days. Say a few words to irritate me n u got me there. It's like i got anger all over my face n blood. maybe its coz im far fm God, but oh well...somehow i like me this way, then i dun have to go along with what everyone wants n think more for me and about me. hmm it is human nature to be self-centred right? haha another excuse...
but i actually like being short-tempered... its sadistic but i kinda like getting angry. It seems to make me feel good, although this is in itself a highly ironic n contradictory statement. And i actually turned down some frens when i'd usually juz go along with what they said, somehow i dun see the need to compromise when i dun feel like it anymore. N i enjoy being the 'bad' guy among the good guys...
well let's see how long this 'evil' mood lasts...
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