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marlene with a little intelligence and skill - Subscribe

Foot seems to be healing well I think. My roommate and I went for donuts yesterday which is about a 20 min walk ...in shoes. Probably wasn't a good idea, probably only damaged it more. But I can feel it healing.

Sunday night when i go back to work, i have to do it with that guy...the manager is gonna talk to him about how he asked me out and whatnot, so I'm sure it'll be awkward ...we'll see I guess. I just want the whole thing to go away.

On a lighter note, my paycheck yesterday was 150$s more than I expected, put a smile on my face =)

Haven't slept in 24 hours now, I'm making quite a routine out of the whole barely sleeping thing. Very excited, my roommates are going to their family's houses for the holidays so i get the apartment to myself the whole time.
Yes, i know many will and have said their concern for how i'll be having a lonely christmas. But let it be known, each roommate had invited me for the family gathering, but i can't leave town either way, for i work sunday. Either way, feel not sorry for me! I love being alone. Is that weird? I will have my cat though, and the chinese food joint across the street =) it'll be a lovely christmas.

A woman at work got me a christmas card. Now I will always say I don't like christmas, don't get me anything, bla bla. But being at work, a fairly new employee who works nights with little chat between coworkers, I have not made many friends, this is fine. At this time of year, everyones joking around and trading gifts while i just sit there and watch. The card brightened my day even if she got one for everyone too.
The difference you made, you'll never know my friend.

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Mood: insecure

marlene from that job that makes you sleep back to the thoughts that keep you awake Dec 21st, 2007 12:21:14 pm - Subscribe

My foot is dead. I cant move it without tear jerking pain, let alone walk on it. And I just toughed 8 hours of work, standing in the uniform shoes that hate me to have my roommate say im faking it.

Please Mr. Roommate.
Look at these blisters, look at the pus ...tell me now I'm lying.

I just didn't want to waste the bandaids i had so perfectly on to show him.

On another note. I quit my job about a week and a half ago, or something, and I'm scheduled the rest of this week. I figured fine, i'll do it, get another paycheck, whatever. They posted next weeks schedule ...guess who's working before and after christmas? Yep ...
Me. W.t.f.
Oh well, I've been talking to my mom about moving and it looks as though it'll be postponed for an unknown amount of time, I may as well be making money while i wait and see.

My roommate deleted all my songs off his computer, is it fucked up that made me cry? Its kinda weird, I had it all saved because i wanted to burn it, I even brought blank cds, many of them, when i moved in, but my roommate used the last 3.
700 songs just gone ...man, musics like my life. That's just fucked. If theres any good way to end a bad day, well, this sure as hell is not it.

Man, I can't even walk right.

Just shoot me now

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Mood: disoriented
Current Tune: Playlist Not Found

marlene If you need me, you can call me on the road Dec 18th, 2007 1:33:47 pm - Subscribe

I have to work tonight.
I haven't slept in 48 hours.
Hopefully coffee will do the trick ...lots and lots of coffee.

Not much to report to be honest. I've finally discussed with my mom plans for the big move. So perhaps a date is soon coming that I know when to be prepared for.
Heh, me be prepared. It doesn't matter, I won't start getting ready until the last minute is humanly possible to get it done anyway.

My roommate woke me at 7am this morning making waffles and I swear, he tries to be as loud as possible (i sleep in the living room, by the way). This sucked, especially when you take into account the fact I no longer have an eternal clock, so falling asleep isn't as common to me as it once was. I fell asleep at 5:30am. Yay! An hour and a half of sleep. So ...it's 1:30pm now and my other roommate is in a cleaning mood. Vaccuuming, moving everything, in and out of each room of the apartment.
What is sleep?
Don't know if i'll make it. Maybe i should just call in sick. I need to quit this week anyway for my moving plans ...
Sleep ...

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Mood: defeated
Current Tune: Camera Obscura - Alaska

marlene I'll never do you no harm Dec 14th, 2007 9:00:02 am - Subscribe

Is it just me, or are a lot of entries advertisements of somesort?
Keep clickin ones on front page to read.

Weight Loss.
Learning how to play poker.
Vacation packages.

Not that i mind too much, just wanna see real entries. =(

Anyway ....

I'm quitting my job tomorrow, thats final. I'm getting out of this situation, this weekend is my last. I get no sleep and nights are killing me. My coworker makes me awkward. Customers are complete assholes over simple mistakes. I need a better job.

I need my hometown. I need my mom.

I should call her tonight. Get it organized, start packing, maybe get a date. I should go back to school.

I hope I find better work in Barrie, I hope all my old best friends are still there and not sour about how I left them all 2 and a half years ago.

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Mood: insomniac
Current Tune: The Beatles - Oh Darling

marlene I want you, I want you so bad Dec 13th, 2007 7:54:48 am - Subscribe

Been having a lot of trouble sleeping lately. Last night, I got incredibly tired at 1am, which is weird for me. So I went to sleep, woke again at 4 for two hours, then fell back asleep for another hour. Woke up and couldn't fall back asleep even though my eyes were heavy and my head was cloudy.

I don't know. Maybe sleep isn't that important.

I'm scared, I never called the guy at work when i said i would. I hope he won't be mad. Would it sound like bullshit if i said i lost his number?
I hope not. It's the only excuse I can think of.
My horoscope kind of got me today.

Someone may be shaking up your world today, Marlene, and this might be a difficult pill to swallow. Realize that this is exactly what you need right now to get your lazy bones into gear. Don't look to others to try to change the situation. Change what you can change - yourself. If you feel like a victim, adjust your way of thinking. Only you can control your reactions and feelings in regards to a particular situation.

Maybe this will be the push i need to start packing and get well on my way to moving home. Yes home. I havent had one of those in what feels like forever. Maybe things will make sense when i get there.

Or maybe they'll make less.

I need to worry less about outcomes and just dive in.
Like I did before I was an adult.

I told you 'bout strawberry fields, you know the place where nothing is real. Well heres another place you can go, where everything flows.

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Mood: burned
Current Tune: The Beatles - Glass Onion

marlene You stood there so brave Dec 12th, 2007 1:06:14 am - Subscribe

So a guy at work asked me out.
He has 2 kids and looks as if he's just over the age of 30.

For those of you who don't know.
I'm childless and just a few months over 20.

I work nights with him alone usually ...

If i say no, he won't be too kind to me.

If i say yes ...things could get awkward.

I think I'd rather be ignored.

Oh, is anyone else having a problem in CP? The dropdown menus arent accessable for me. I can't add Friends, edit profile or templates unless from first window.
Is something wrong with me? ='(

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Mood: eh
Current Tune: Neutral Milk Hotel - Three Peaches

marlene It's a morning evacution Dec 9th, 2007 9:14:52 pm - Subscribe

Another sleepless night, another wasted day on sleeping.
If any of you are ever offered a nightshift, whether you get more money for it or not, do not take it.

Got to go to work in an hour and I'm dreading it. I tried to get a hold of my mom this evening, but no answer, so I'm going to try and call again then write an email if still no answer. I need to get out of here, I think.

Alas, I must get some things finished with my day before it starts feeling like my life is all work, no play.

'i'm looking in on the good life i might be doomed never to find. without a trust or flaming fields am i too dumb to refine?'

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Mood: tired
Current Tune: The Shins - New Slang

marlene Where oh where to begin Dec 9th, 2007 7:35:41 am - Subscribe

I had to use a default template cause apparently my custom one i thought was amazing looked like butchered, yet colorful poo on other pcs. Maybe I'll get my HTML skill back at some point.

So much catching up to do but I'll try not to bore you all!
Been through my hardest breakup ever 2 months ago. Left me more broken than anything I've ever experienced, but life goes on and fighting is something I've learned to do and will always do. I've met someone great now so we'll see how that goes =)

I'm bunking with a couple friends these last few months workin a midnight shift that I would believe to be killing me. I never get sleep and my roommates always need money from me. An opportunity to move in with my mother has come up though which i think would maybe be just what the doctor ordered~
She said she'll put 1000$s into buying me a laptop if I come home. Don't know if she's trying to fix her past mistakes with material items ...but i need a laptop and I can't even describe how much I long for that feeling of home again.

Things have been crazy within the family and some things have happened that I believe have led my mom to try her hardest to fix the distance between us. My brother had overdosed on heroin over the summer, the doctors say he cheated death. He's lost 80% of his hearing and I'm not sure if it'll save our family or break it further. But as they say, nothing brings people together like a great tragedy (or something?)

No need to be sad though! I have independence, I have my health (i think) and i have the love of my life in my lap. My amazing cat Spectre.

This time I mean it, i'll try and update as much as possible! I've missed you guys and this site is still as amazing as ever.
I <3 you Aeonity. (Emoblog for you oldschoolers like me)
-Marlene

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Mood: euphoric
Current Tune: Kind of Like Spitting - The Thrill of the Hunt

marlene Don't know which way to go. Aug 30th, 2006 1:05:55 pm - Subscribe

The nerves are kicking in. I'm getting nervous about everything. Moving home, can I do it. If I'm getting nervous about this ..what about London. At least I have something waiting there.

Best friend might get me a job at Petsmart. That'd be nice.

I wish these feelings would ease up.

oh! Where has all my friends gone.

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Mood: unlucky
Current Tune: Chantal Kreviazuk - All I Can Do

marlene Long time no see. Aug 27th, 2006 12:26:00 pm - Subscribe

I wanna move to England.
I wanna make my dreams come true. I hope I can make it. Will know in a couple months.

Wish me luck.

I'm moving back with my mom. That's my first step.

I never wanted something so bad, I hope I'm strong enough!

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Mood: sunny

miranda Leaving Aeonity Jul 15th, 2006 1:06:47 am - Subscribe

In the efforts of finding a blog that is more suited to my needs, I'm moving away from Aeonity.

You can now find me at my new-look blog

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Mood: itchy

Miranda TUI... (Typing Under The Influence) AGAIN! Jul 7th, 2006 9:58:33 am - Subscribe

Why do I always seem to remember I need to update my blog when I've had a couple? I'm currently on bundy number 2.

I am currently typing 19 to the dozen ( I really don't get that statement, but it means a lot!) to Nathan, who isn't even replying, I'm just chatty right now. He's also the only one talking to me.

In other news, it appears I may have gotten a job. I had a second-round interview for a call centre on Tuesday, and they said they'd call by Close of Business on Wed evening. No call on my mobile. (and even though they had the wrong mobile number, I had ensured they had the correct one) thus, Wed evening I was feeling a bit miserable and a little surprised, being as I felt pretty confident about the whole interview.

Tonight, I am told... AFTER business hours they called the home phone on Wed and left a message for me. I listened to said message, and it means I may actually have a job! (yn)... which won't work in this, because (yn) is the symbol for fingers crossed in MSN.

So yay for that! I could so use some decent cash right now. Everything is just too expensive to consider really.

I had another singing lesson on Tuesday, and Daniel has given me "Don't Know Why" by Norah Jones, which makes me happy. I love that song, and jazzy stuff just makes me right at home. Apparently Pa (my grandad) used to play Jazz for me when I was very small, which would explain my natural comfort in Jazz & blues

Anyhows, I'm finding typing entirely too hard so I'm off, and will let you know what happens when I call them back!

Love yas!

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Mood: excited
Current Tune: Right Here In My Arms - HIM

Miranda A retraction to my last entry Jun 28th, 2006 11:28:15 am - Subscribe

Ok, not going to bed just yet. Also decided not to make the last blog private. Only others with aeonity accounts can see it, and only Fungus has one.

Speaking of Fungus, he's not as lousy and horrible as I made out. Here's why.

1) He loves me and I am the first girl he has ever really loved.

2) He accepts me as me. He's never asked me to change anything about me.

3) He's caring. From heating my heat pack when my neck hurts, to holding my hair back when I vomit (I had gastro people... nothing else) he's always looking after me.

4) Just one look from him can make me feel like the only girl in the whole world.

5) He's beautiful. He's got beautiful blue-grey eyes, and a gorgeous smile. The rest of him isn't bad either.

6) He's always so gentle. But never gentle enough to make me feel smothered or too babied.

7) He's funny. He provides endless laughter for me, even if it is AT him at times.

8 ) He likes music. This is a very important factor people. Better yet, he likes most of my music, and has introduced me to heaps of other great music I'd never heard before.

9) He's warm. There's nothing like his cuddles.

10) He has the best kisses in the world. I like to call them lovely kisses. Not too wet, not too dry.

11) He snuggles me in bed, even when he doesn't like sleeping on his right, where I lie.

12) He snuggles me in the morning, so I always wake up in his arms.

13) He's generous. He's taken me out for dinner, even though he couldn't really afford it.

14) He's thoughtful. He knows just what would make me happy, even if it's only little.

15) He always wants to know how my day has gone, and is genuinely interested.

16) He knows how to deal with me when I cry. Not many people can do that. I will kill the next person who says "it's ok" or "don't cry"

17) He calls me his. I love being his.

18 ) He wants to marry me one day. I couldn't imagine life without him.

19) He's proud to introduce me to his friends and family. Even if I'm not religious.

20) He has a million little nicknames for me.

21) He puts up with my little nicknames for him. Even Possum, Chook and Buggerbrains. Even infront of his friends.

22) He teaches me. I don't know a lot about music, or cars, or computers. And still he is patient and explains.

23) He doesn't make me feel stupid. Even if I don't know much about the topic.

24) He puts up with me and my mood swings. I can be horrible at times.

There are a million other reasons why I love him. From the backrubs and head massages to the driving me to the hospital at 4am when I was sick, but the most important reason by far:

25) He's my Fungus and I love him.

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Mood: sappy
Current Tune: Should've Listened - Nickelback

Miranda An almost serious update Jun 28th, 2006 11:11:24 am - Subscribe

And again, I'm late in my "weekly" update. At least I think I'm late. Still, these updates are more frequent than usual.

I'm still doing this horrible jobsearch thing, which I have to do to keep getting paid. I applied for 8 jobs today so I am quite proud of myself.

I also had an interview for a call centre on Tuesday. I wasn't brilliant, but I was better than some of the others. And as Nath says: To escape the fiery dragon, one does not need to run as fast as one on horseback, one must simply run faster than the dwarf Or something like that anyway. I have no idea where he got that from. Also there was somethign slightly 'ick' feeling about the call centre. Just put me off and made me feel uneasy. Like the job interview in 04 when I was sick and the guy reminded me of my friend's abusive stepdad.

I am hoping to get anything that doesn't involve too much travel and I don't haev to dress too nice for. I also want decent-ish pay. Which isn't too hard. Call Centre pay is $15-$20 p/h as a rule.

I have also decided it's time I got my Learner's. As of 2007 they're bringing new rules and shit in, and I don't want that crap. As it is I will have to have my P's for 4 years unless I can get my L's and then my P's before 2007. Which... means I would have to get my L's tomorrow and my P's in December. Not likely.

The Iris boys have set a date and time for their next LAN, so if you're gamer in the Melbourne area, check it out!

Onto my actual inspiration for blogging, I can't believe I never mentioned it before. My littlest bro is in all kinds of shit. Multiple charges of car theft, riding in stolen cars, breaking & entering, vandalism, and arson. Some of it sounds a bit harsh, he wasn't actually the one who lit the fire, but he was there. Not sure how they're sticking him with arson on that one, but anyway. He has also broken his bail conditions 3 or 4 times, and lied to the police, and thus is being held in remand until his trail late July.

At this place there is an automatic allowed visitors list. Other people can be added or whatever, but the list is mum, dad, my other bro and me. Anyways, mum went in and saw him, she says he's doing ok, but she's hinting she wants ME to go visit. We haven't gotten on since he was like 3. Not to mention he doesn't really like me that much or listen to me either. Why would I want to go?

Not to mention the fact that the place is actually a juvenile prison. I don't really fancy that either. At the same time, mum seems to think he'd like it, and I think she'd like it if I went... maybe I'll go in with her this weekend or something. Wait no $$. Damn centrelink cheques being so tiny.

Grr... that reminds me. Ryan is still out of work too. Which, ya know, that happens. I've been out of work longer than him. But I went on Centrelink about a month after. And he was still working then. He won't go on Centrelink, and truth be told is not trying THAT hard to get a job. I mean he's looking, but he is being picky, and only occasionally getting work from his dad. At least he was earning more when he was supporting me. It's getting fucking hard.

I just wish he'd at least go on Centrelink for a bit, that way it wouldn't be so shit. Especially with the car rego due soon, the gearbox/clutch going, it needing a service and new tyres. I can't fund all of that. Not to mention we have't paid Julia rent in months.

I know Centrelink sucks. I'm on it for fucksake and giving up half my days for their silly jobsearch bullshit just to keep getting paid. I know it sucks, and they have too many forms and too much stuffing around. But at least it's SOMETHING. We can't keep surviving on just over $300 a fortnight.

Ironically enough when Fungus was working (for about twice what I get now) and I wasn't on Centrelink, EVERYONE was pressuring me to go back with Centrelink, even though I really didn't want to for the same reasons he doesn't. All he has to do is say "I don't want to" and everyone shuts up. Why the double standards people? Is it not as hard on me to be the sole income as it was on Ryan? Isn't it doing the same things to me as it was to Ryan? Goddamit!

For chrissakes I'm earning less. More shit needs to be paid for and soon than it did a few months ago too.

Anyways I'm just bitching now. I think I need to remind Ryan of some of this stuff. I know he doesn't often read my blog, and besides it would be mean for him to read it here without me telling him. Hmm... thinking I might make this one private... A lil too personal really.

Hmm... anyways I'm off to bed.

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Mood: scattered
Current Tune: Rockstar - Nickelback

Miranda More Things I Have Learned Jun 18th, 2006 12:55:08 pm - Subscribe

I have learned....

Never sit on the toilet with your bag still on your shoulder. Especially when the straps make the bag hang at your butt level. You will sit on the bag instead of the toilet seat, lose your balance and fall off.

Never google Disney Porn and then find you're so curious about Jasmine and Ariel getting it on you have to go to the site to find out more. You will get some stupid spyware and have to reload windows to get rid of it.

Never fall asleep on someone else's bed. No matter how tired or drunk you are, or if the bed is a matress on your bedroom floor, and the person whose bed it is is currently awake and occupying your bed. They will be mean and poke you in the head until you move when they want sleep.

Never keep two mice in a cage who fight all the time, even if it is funny to watch one try and have gay sex with the other. The amorous mouse will eventually get the shit kicked out of him.*

I have also learned:

Tequila is yummy, particularly with Lemonade. Would be great with a twist of lime too.

Go prepared to Redrum gigs so that when people love the boys so much they want to Download Thier Original Songs you don't have to give the URL out on crappy peices of paper torn off the used song lists.

Always check your HTML code before posting. I have and turns out I would have had to fix it. Thankyou to the poster a while ago who told me the correct code!

1/4 to 3 in the morning is a bad time to write a blog. Your brain will be too tired to function correctly and you will find you have lapses in brain activity where you stare and the computer screen aimlessly.

Well... at least I learned some useful things this week!

Miranda xoxo

*Lars was bitten a few times on his front legs and back. He looked to have quite a lot of blood on his fur, but when i was holding him nothing seemed to be too sore or still bleeding. He is recovering in a separate cage and seems to be his usual cheeky self. Dimebag is uninjured and seems relieved not to have to constantly defend himself from Lars' advances.

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Mood: braindead
Current Tune: nothing... fungus has headphones for a change!

Miranda Weekly Update Jun 16th, 2006 9:15:15 am - Subscribe

Well... so far I've already forgotten to update in time. Only by one day ago admittedly, but even still... this is why I don't make New Year's Resolutions.

Truth be told, I looked at it a couple of days ago, and really had nothing to say, but seeing as I had a little while to spare, I decided to wait.

What's new?

I reloaded WinXP into my comp. Finally got rid of the spyware... that's what you get for googling Disney Porn, it now runs beautifully. I have half a mind to call the computer Alice. I don't know why, but every comp mum has had was named, and I feel I should name my computer. Alice, Ella or Elsie or something like that. Actually... not Ella, that was one of my mice.

I want to get some girl mice too, and put them in the other cage, named Violet and Sasha. I don't know why, but it suits them. Which is odd seeing as I haven't even met these mice. I like to name things in case you hadn't noticed.

I've finally decided on the design for my tattoo. It's a Southern Cross on my ankle, which I've probably said before, but have never got around to getting. Now Ryan has photshopped on the design and I can see it better than my wobbly drawings on, and I LOVE IT manies!

Tomorrow I'm going shopping with mum, she needs to pick up her new glasses, and I want to try and convince her she needs a new mobile. Hers cuts out after a few seconds. the last time she called me we spoke for 39 seconds... in two calls. A phone like mine Nokia 1110, is like $60 now or something, which isn't bad. She'd have to changer her number, but she's done that like 3 times already so it wouldn't be a big deal for her. I meanwhile, HATE havign to change my number, I have so many people in my phone book, that I only have mobiles for.

After that is my old choir committee meeting, I'm not in the choir anymore, but I'm still on the committee until it is reformed, at the end of the year. Which I can live with, I'd better just show up for at least one meeting though.

Then the Redrum Boys have a gig int he evening. It's a friend of Tim's dad or soemthing, but a gig's a gig, and they'll always need a fantastic roadie/photographer/groupie to come along! My dad says that equals a band moll.. I'm not so sure about that... times have changed lol.

Anyways, that's my weekly update for now.

Be good!

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Mood: Chillin
Current Tune: Jay n Fungus discussing some racing game

marlene Detention! Jun 15th, 2006 9:42:57 am - Subscribe

So ...I've been skipping too much school. It just can't be helped. So today I must serve a detention. I'm debating whether or not to skip it.
Only 3 days left of school, they can't do much to me 'cept more detentions ...

Damn school making life more complicated than it really needs to be.

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Mood: flashy
Current Tune: Bright Eyes feat Britt Daniels - You Get Yours

marlene Stupid me! Jun 12th, 2006 11:07:27 am - Subscribe

So ...I'm very disappointed in myself. I'm gonna miss the Bright Eyes concert due to lack of smarts.

The show is today ...and I thought it was next month. I thought it was may!

I knew I should have invested $2 into that cute puppy calendar.

/whine.

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Mood: sad
Current Tune: Radiohead - You and Whose Army?

marlene Theres no hell when you die, so don't look so worried. Jun 11th, 2006 10:24:56 am - Subscribe

So ..I'm thinkin of changing up my template. But it's been so long I've forgotten all my html codes that I ever knew. Not that that was much. I suppose I have all the time I need to figure it out again. We'll see.

So, I wanna make my entries more exciting, since I've kind of been obsessing over my game and thats kinda ...boring. Heh.

So, Friday I went to see Cirque De Soleil which was pretty neat. Quite exciting stuff. I wish I could do even half the things all those extremely talented people could do.

So I am counting down the days until June 12th. For Bright Eyes will be preforming 45 minutes away and you can count me in! Will be my first real concert and I can't wait. Though ...I should probably get the tickets now before they sell out ...just need to find someone to go with. I'm sure I can ...hopefully.

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Mood: expectant
Current Tune: Bright Eyes - Light Pollution

marlene Doesn't sound much like me Jun 8th, 2006 6:02:45 pm - Subscribe

Marlene was
a Humble Butler
in a past life.

Discover your past lives @ Quiz Me

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Mood: sleepless
Current Tune: Cursive - Art is Hard