Missing
Date: Jun 24th, 2005 6:59:19 pm - Subscribe
Mood: edgy
i realised i haven blogged for so long.. so many things have happened...
initially i was busy with doing admin for the church retreat so i didnt have time to blog, or was too tired to actually... was literally in church from morn to ard 10 plus each night, mon to sun..haha come to think of it, i cant imagine how i did that...;p
so i lost my 'blogging' momentum, if there was such a thing... then the church retreat came... it came and went in such a flurry, im still a haze when thinking bout it. All i know was that it was a crazy 5 days, and i ran ard doing stuff til 3 am each day, i was so mentally 'off' i cldn even sit down w/o sleeping.. so i didnt journal each day's events, much to my regret...
let me try to reminiscense...
we went as advanced party, i rem waking up so early, 6.30am to be at the meeting point to take the 8am coach. my pastor was so sweet, she came to pick me up in a cab coz it was on the way... i'd intended to take a bus on my own... the coach was real comfy and i was glad i grabbed a solo seat, coz it'd kill me to keep thinking of things to say if i'd sat with someone... mainly it'd be awkard coz im not close to them and im more of a thinker than a talker..
lots of silly things on the bus- J singing..but he was so shy i cld barely hear him..haha it was a kill to hear him sing loudly in a van later when we went to buy food ;p
Jo is really creative and he really prepared hard for the camp! this poor bloke only slept 2 hrs the nite b4... i told him i like his 'never-say-die' attitude and its true.. he juz gives and gives...
L's really observant and its kinda scary too.. i was being my usual quiet-ard-pple-im-not-close-to self and he suddenly asked aloud-'Why are u so quiet?' really took me aback.. i juz smiled at a loss..
the only time i had time for a swim was during the night of our advanced arrival.. swam with S.. it was quite fun, i realised my personality may have been becoming like hers- a mel chlor... i became so much more indecisive, emotionless, cold and less of a thinker and analyser...
honestly i wish i cld go on recalling each day's events but i feel myself zonking out and my 'new' personality (brought out by work stress) doesnt actually make it easy to actually think and organise my thots now.. which used to be a natural occurance for me..hope i dun freak out at my new self...i feel so superficial yet never so confident before.. this really sounds like a choleric...
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