all hell broke loose. last night. aaa.
Date: Nov 23rd, 2008 6:19:13 am - Subscribe
Mood: woozy
I am listening to: taylor swift.
have been such a long time since the last blog.
nowadays, it seems that 24 hours just doesnt cut it.
the weather is currently cloudy.
the wind is blowing. and blowing.
and i feel like falling asleep.
but i cant.
im having my final exam next week.
and im supposed to be sitting for my entrance exam for NTU on february.
and im no longer sane.
after getting my hands on the syllabus for the entrance exam, i have the weirdest feeling ever.
its this feeling of questioning myself, if i am good enough.
lets just hope i am.
this is the only thing im counting on right now.
bytheway, i had the highest score in class for the last bio test.
im happy!
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waiting..
Date: Oct 24th, 2008 10:43:56 am - Subscribe
Mood: ducky
..for the light at the end of the tunnel.
school has been hectic-er than before.
am going to do a new course on math a level.
and i have no idea how i'm going to be able to finish it in just 3 months.
god bless us all.
been thinking a lot bout the future lately,
and i dont know...
everything just seems uncertain
for the past 2 months ive been so sure of wanting to go to uni in sydney
but then i just changed my mind.
and now i want to go to singapore.
so currently, i have to prepare for my ialts test in case i wanna go to sydney again, and i have to prepare for my math, chem, and phy a level tests, in case i wanna go to singapore..
when there's a will, there's a way.
i just hope i know mine before its too late.. :/
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missing.
Date: Sep 22nd, 2008 9:27:51 am - Subscribe
Mood: unsatisfied
life moves so quickly, too fast for us to even watch it passes by.
1,5 years ago i went into this classroom expecting nothing short of awful.
its amazing, how classmates can turn into friends. and how can friends turn into family.
extended family; if you like.
i find myself wondering..
how the future is going to be like.
not quite so sure though :/
its overwhelming to think about the times that we've lost.
more overwhelming to think about the times to come.
do you know how when you watch tv and then commercial goes on, and then you switched to another channel,
and then you switched it back to find that the commercial's finished already?
like youve just missed a part of the show.
that part may just be as unimportant as the commercial, that part may be unimportant at all, but that doesnt matter cause you feel like youve missed something.
that is how im feeling right now.
no matter how hard i try to slow down and stop to smell the roses,
i cant seem to wonder, "is there anything that ive missed?"
.... :/
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finding home.
Date: Aug 16th, 2008 10:56:51 pm - Subscribe
Mood: stuck
I am listening to: saosinnn.
i find myself questioning a lot of the things i've done quite lately.
just realized that what i want is not to be in love but to fall in love.
i want to feel the feeling of falling.
i miss the feeling my stomach makes when he called, or texted.
i miss those nights when i cant seem to go to sleep cause smiling is the only thing i can do and when my heart beats louder than even the earphones that are jammed in my ears.
but then i remember how all those things bring me back to this one boy.
and how i wont be able to fall in love with anyone else when he's still in my mind.
testing the water becomes harder when youre afraid that there might be sharks hiding.
it becomes harder when youre afraid that you dont get it right this time.
that maybe you have to test it in a whole different swimming pool.
or in a whole different lake.
or maybe even ocean.
"everything happens for a reason, or is that just our reason for everything that happened?"
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whenever i fall at your feet...
Date: Aug 12th, 2008 11:20:14 am - Subscribe
Mood: cheated
sometimes, you just need a shoulder to cry on.
moving on is easy, its what you leave behind that makes it so hard.
im just tireddddddddd.
from school
but everything has been a lot of fun.
this is the final year in high school
and you can feel it in the air.
everyone is just living this year like its going out of style.
found a possible quote for the yearbook thing
"just because we argue doesnt mean there's no love
and just because we're not related, doesnt mean we're not family."
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