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runawaykid
Runaway Kid 1st Run - Subscribe
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Yep, 1st post. Short introduction here. Actual name: You have to find out yourself Fav. Bands: Seriously? too many to tell. A few on top of my list tho: Busted, Fall Out Boy, Yellowcard, Fightstar, Panic! at The Disco, Taking Back Sunday, Funeral for a Friend, bleh way too much for a few. Occupation: Desperate loner, poet, and a band-grouuupie Take your taste back. Peel back your skin. Thats how i describe how im feeling now. Mixed, and desperately falling out of everything i thought i could have and call my own. They've taken it away, they didnt say why or how its just so they can watch me cry alone. He left me. I dont know why. Maybe he never wanted me. Maybe he decided to have some fun with the easiest one to play with. That's my take on it. But I dont know yet. I am not sure of everything. I thought i was being sure, but they found out. They took it away. I dont know why would they do that. And my mind is slowly dying. My feelings are low.. but they aren't in my head. They kept turning my best dreams to my nightmares. I kept magining me and you cuddling in front of the fireplace. Snuggled up, not affraid of anything thats going to hit us. Waiting for the sun to rise just so we can smile to know we've passed another day dying together. Take your taste back, peel back your skin... |
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runawaykid
Too Many to Handle Sep 9th, 2005 10:59:39 am - Subscribe
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I seriously need to get out of my own head. I kept telling myself that I wish I'd done the things i did in different ways. Have you ever felt like you want to turn back time to do the things youve done in the WRONG way? I am having second thoughts. But it seems in my head that right isnt always right and winning isnt always winning. Catch my drift? Maybe no. It seems that I've done all the things I've done in the right way but I never seem to win I am annoyed by myself. I know people like to say that they hate themself. But I am saying this because I really do. I hate the way I give up everytime I think I cant do it. I hate the way I do everything. I'm my own biggest hater. |
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runawaykid
Broken hearts are easier to hurt Sep 10th, 2005 1:04:28 pm - Subscribe
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"Her heart is a paper I'll tore it up" I seriously hate this one girl Im not the one who usually hold grudges on people but i am now How can someone be too high to even say to her own friend that this one only time i got the better thing. ive been spending time.. too many time i think and i always think that friends will never do that I was wrong. Im questioning everyone i know now. i start to think that i can never believe anyone in this life. look, shes my friend and i guess she was only playing a part in her movie. and shes the lead role in it, and shes a liar. I dunno, inspiration kicks in. I decided to write something down "Her heart is a piece of paper I'll tore it up" "Her heart is a piece of paper and I'll tore it up" She's saying she dont know She's saying she dont understand But she's a movie where the lead role is a liar With a bloody end to finish it off Her heart is a piece of paper and Ill tore her up And now she's full of doodlings, carvings Good God, its the most lies ive seen in a day Her heart is a paper I'll tore it up |
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runawaykid
Head is Swimming.. Sep 12th, 2005 11:41:50 am - Subscribe
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I am tired but it seems that my head isnt. I am tired. My head is not tho. It keeps on taking me to the places I dream of at night. Maybe cause its cloudy today. And the rain never seems to fall but the clouds are always there. My head never seems to be in the place where they supposed to be. When I was in class it seems to be in the band's studio. When i was in the studio, it seems to be in a beach somewhere. I kept on remembering places. places where the clouds are always there. where the sky is just grey enough to make you feel peaceful. I miss a lot of peacefulness in my life now. No matter how far I think I've gotten, I always fall back on the same damn place. I might not make sense now, but I will in a few days. Until then... |
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runawaykid
Under the Radar Sep 13th, 2005 9:38:06 am - Subscribe
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People just never change. Period. Just when you think they have, they actually havent. And i hate myself for being too understanding to the same people. Its a disgrace, actually. I think im just an easy target. Teachers kept telling me to listen to them today at school. Well not every one of them, just this woman-teacher-person. Her class is home economy sorta class. All of us were too bored and too lazy to listen to her. But we're not too lazy to talk to one another. Dunno why. My mom keeps on telling me that I need to stop liking these bands. She said that its ruining my whole entire life. When it is my whole entire life. I am not the kind of girl who's way too moody to stare anyone at their eyes. I do pretty well at school, get A's for math and other subjects. But she didnt even care. I think it depends on the way you look at it. Loving bands can actually be good, I think its just them making assumption before even tasting it for themselves. Bleh, I actually snapped at my own mother when she said that i need to get out more. I am damaged goods. Bleh. |