So I jumped in, and I let you in..
Date: May 14th, 2004 1:31:56 pm - Subscribe
Mood: naughty
Spinning: Ice Cream -- Sarah McLachlan
He called. Was on the phone for almost an hour.
I still don't know why he was so quiet these few weeks. I asked. But I didnt get any straightforward answer.
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I Absolutely Love Her..When she Smiles.
Date: May 14th, 2004 3:34:47 am - Subscribe
Mood: frisky
Spinning: Further -- Longview
I'm in one of those moods again. One where only Dean can settle. One where I'll want nobody else. One where no one else would do. Yeah, he does that to me.
Finalised my project today. Monday's Judgement Day.
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A Day for Believers
Date: May 13th, 2004 8:18:32 am - Subscribe
Mood: crappy
Spinning: Konstantine -- SoCo
Cramps are subdued, but still it hurts.
I missed Dean the most this morning, when I couldn't sleep, when I sat there on the bathroom floor, staring at the 4 empty walls. Thinking what he'd say if he was there. Thinking what he'd do if he knew I couldn't sleep. He would probably climb into my bed and hug me from behind, till I fall asleep. He'd probably hold my tummy, rub it, and tell me everything's gonna be alright, that I won't hurt so much anymore.
Yeah...he probably would.
Crappy. Presentation on Monday, 3:40pm.
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Cramping & Hurting
Date: May 12th, 2004 1:02:52 pm - Subscribe
Mood: lethargic
Spinning: Hold On -- Good Charlotte
I had a terrible stomach cramp halfway through Secret Window in the cinema. I was there looking up at Johnny Depp making seriously untimely lame jokes, egging him to kill his wife already and get it over with while suffering some overly-major uteric spasms. And them being not orgasmic, mind you.
Later on, I drove like a maniac home, scared the hell outta my friends and had oh..maybe 10 other drivers cursing me on the streets.
That's the cramping part.
About hurting. Yeah. I'm hurting bad. Inside. So long as my friends keep asking me how's Dean, I hurt inside. I feel lousy. I want him to msg me again. But I cant. I cant make him. Why am I even whining about this?
Toodles.
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Testing
Date: May 11th, 2004 2:29:14 pm - Subscribe
Mood: rejected
Spinning: American English -- Idlewild
Testing, testing.
My other blog's getting too public. I hate to have to censor my own thoughts and think of what other ppl might think about me and my blogging.
So, this blog is just for me to rant and rave, if you happen to randomly surf by, please leave me alone if you dont like what I'm doing here, ok?
*sigh*
OK, so I admit it. I have this blog so I can rant and rave and about Dean. I miss him so much. I miss him msging me all the time, I miss the old Dean. My day's just not complete without him asking me how my day went. It's just not complete when my baby doesn't gather me up for a hug and call me his baby girl. It sucks. And I'm sad.
I promised myself I wont let this happen when it all began. I promised myself I can get out of this whenever I wanted. But fact remains I miss my baby Dean.
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