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Tyra Banks fainted? Keifer Sutherland was drinking? What is going on with our stars of today? Do our canadians know that Mario Lemieux and Pamela Anderson are 2 of the richest canadians we have? Yeah I think it is her breasts. I like that she is going up against Harper and our animals though. You go girl!
Looks like we may get lucky and have a new superstore here in Victoria BC. Has anyone heard about the lady who got a call about wanting to know if she wanted her husbands ashes and she thought she had got them 4 years ago? OMG I would just flip right out!
Oh I have to say I am proud Eva Longoria from Desperate housewives talking to cosmopolotian about getting a brazialian bikini wax and that it gives her better sex with Tony Parker. She thinks everyone should try it. Uhm yeah no. Shaving maybe but waxing OUCH! I agree it's probably alot better in bed and she rocks for being cool to going out in public and talking about something like that. It pisses me off how people get all uptight about something like shaving or sex like it should be kept taboo and in the closet. Grow the hell up!!!!
I have to say I HATE AVRIL's NEW BLONDE HAIR!!!! Get a grip girl go back to your natural color.
Sucks like hell that aerosmiths concert was cancelled apparently had something to do with his throat. Motley Crue is going to be here I could cry I wanted to see them so badly. I fricken love Vince Neil!
I have to say yeah to the television for having Vanity Insanity on last night. We need more shows on that talk about men and vanity issues because I think alot of men feel alone. I couldn't believe Buff from WWF that he had calf implants and his body rejected them and he actually for a second wondered about how he could keep his legs without having them cut off.
I'm having really hard times finding canadian women soccer things for Sarah. Really gets on my nerves that it isn't easier to find canadian female stuff because it is so huge for her.
Mary has gradually been getting worse and worse over time and just so out of control I feel like I am going to totally loose myself.
DJ is doing really well his marks came up so well in school and he is just doing really good. He is grounded for two weeks cause he has pushed boundries a couple times but for the most part he is doing really well.
Has anyone heard about the Jesus Letters? I am really curious about them. I only caught the tail end about them on dateline which is one of my can't miss shows.
LOL Mary is ewwwwwwing right now Sarah has been bugging for a fish and I got Sarah a grow a fish so she couldn't get on my nerves anymore and she can't kill it. OMG I am gonna go crazy. I miss the peace and quiet in this house.
Oh last week asshole Chris told Phil he looked forward to seeing Phil at karate and then called him and told him Sarah and him could no longer train under him. When Phil tried to call him he went on like an ass. Last night he agreed to let them come back. I personally think Phil deserves better and that Chris is a pompous ass. He deserves nothing but shit and I despise him.
Grrrrrrr I don't know how people deal with the hell like I am dealing with at this minute. If you could hear this kid, grrrrrrrr!!!!
I am not usually into watching extreme makeover but have really liked this show extreme makeover after the storm. I have always always always wanted to go to new orleans. Maybe one day

So far one of my favorite people were Big Momma.
So Phil and I are doing ok, I am just ticked about the whole Chris thing. Right now he is collected a bunch of micor and mini transformers and there is alot of them. He posted alot of his transformer pics on his multiply page. http://phillovesangela.multiply.com
I did get some transformers for him for easter. Mary wants Phat Farm shoes I told her to talk to her dad. Speaking of Michael he has been great he's already getting her signed up for stuff for when she gets to Chilliwack. He has her all pumped up for moving there. I am pretty happy about the whole transition right now. I mean he does piss me off but with Mary lately he has been really great. He can't take her cat but we talked to her about it cause my therapist told me too and she actually took it it ok. So I am glad I took her adivce.
Which reminds me I am on a new med so far I cannot take respiridal it makes me violent, I cannot take epival makes me sick so does wellbutrin, cannot take zyprexa it makes me not be able to breathe and I swell up, and Lithium I projectile vomited it took a week to get better from the effects of Lithium. So all those are going on my allergy chart so now I am on topiramate and still taking celexa and zopiclone. At first the topiramate made my head feel wierd and my body feel heavy and fingers tingly but been on it a week now and feeling slowly much better and no more tingly sensation. Apparently a side effect is loosing weight and can also help with migraines oh God I can only hope so because I suffer huge with migraines. I am still also suffering huge with my teeth they hurt so damn bad.
I saw a shirt at bootlegger I want it so bad says I been bad I need to be punished. I so love that shirt.
I went to La Senza Girl the other day holy crap they just brought in a whole bunch of soccer outfits. I so wish I had the money to buy them all. We went finally to soccer world even they had no real abundance of female soccer stuff.
Oh Michael's parents payed for Sarah to go to bible camp in the summer so that will be fun and she is enrolled for one of the soccer camps and hope to get her in another one, crossing fingers. Soccer is hella way more expensive than I ever thought it would be.
I made chicken tonight with the new shake N Bake in the shakeable container which you pay more for. Is not like the packaged stuff at all. If they are out there they should put the stuff in the package in the shakable container and a cajun one would be awesome. My kids love cajun. Sometimes I just sprinkle cajun seasoning on chicken breasts other times I lighten some chicken fillets in a pan and then prinkles tons of cajun seasoning in the pan with it and cook till lightly brown and serve with lipton nooldes and sauce herb and butter or lipton noodles and sauce and corn kids love it and Michael taught me that.
Did people know there is actually blog awards? OMG I almost died when I heard that. Apparently one of the most popular is one called Girl with a one tracked mind http://girlwithaonetrackmind.blogspot.com/. Well Duh I am right there with her. I think my meds make me less like that than I used to be. Another blog that keeps coming up is the monk blog http://www.mellowmonk.com/
Apparently this site Overheard on the street has become a hugely visited site. I don't know I think it is okay but definetly not one of my favorites you could check it out and see how you feel about it: http://www.overheardinnewyork.com/
I think this site is very cool, you can send in your secret on a postcard and it is posted. I mean if you really need to get something of your chest this rocks http://postsecret.blogspot.com/
Anyhow one more site I wish we had for canada but I only know for the usa is http://www.unclaimed.org it is a site where you can look to see for free if you might have money somewhere that is rightfully yours. It was on dateline one night apparently millions of americans have money out there and it is unclaimed. Why not take the few minutes to see if you might have money out there.
Oh a site I recently got stuck on but now am in love with and am on as LadyIllusions is http://www.frappr.com I love it and has some cool people on. If you know any cool places or anything to do with bipolar, osteoarthritis or soccer or canadians post it on my blogs. Chat later
Holy crap we are watching American Inventor and Angela MacCray is on way too close to my name . I have to say if anyone is watching this show my vote is for the lady who made the edible snowglobes. This Angela person SUCKS! Human centerpiece I don't think so. I would buy up tons of the edible snowglobes though for anyone and everyone. Would love to see lambs and soccer and transformers

Ok laterz....

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Sattorie Lots to Say... Apr 11th, 2006 2:01:13 am - Subscribe

Well canada has a new Bill 25 letting the goverment and hydro watch your hydro usage hoping to bust people using it for illigal purposes. I guess on one level that is great but apparently it is going to affect legitimate hydoponic businesses, so not really sure if there is a way they can reword that bill or rework it so it won't affect them.
Also apparently Ontario is putting things like sudafed and other decongestions(sp?) behind the counter because it contains a drug called pseudophedrine which is contained in meth. Uhm ok I think that is going a little far. Which apparently BC and I believe it is alberta is saying we had like 30 mom and pop robberies which is not much. I personally am really pro http://methwatch.ca but give me a break putting this stuff behind the counter.
Parents out there check out this site while I think of it http://www.enough.org/Lighting the way to protect children and families from the dangers of illegal Internet pornography and sexual predators. Dateline did a great story on how alot of kids are becoming predators on http://www.myspace.com so I talked to my son about it and talked to him about how "Matt" the cop brought up facts on there that they may not have thought about, I definetly love the show dateline has to be one show I try never to miss and I have seen all 3 to catch a predator shows. Surprised to see it moving the USA goverment to get involved now though too. Sad it took that much to concern them though!!!
I am interested to watch the show next week on The Return of Jesse James Hollywood.
I like their Mank Blog. Their story on the Jesus Letters By Michael Baigent really has me wanting to investigate further!!! I also want to look at the book The Passover Plot.
You all know how I love CSI I want the video by ObieTrice called SNITCH he did a stint on CSi and it's awesome song and apparently he is Eminems Protege. Kinda cool ya gotta admit and I have to admit I really do like Eminem and I think I recently heard is he getting divorced from his wife AGAIN? I hope not cause that would be such a sad story.
Does anyone know if it is only in canada or not that at DQ they took away the reeces pieces blizzards? I know they used to be in the top 5 blizzards so wtf? They do have the peanut butter cups butter grrrrrrr!!!
Has anyone watched the show Rescue Mediums? They are two women who are very good and I would love to meet. I am always very entranced by their show. Very good and worth checking out. In canada it is on the womens network.
I recently joined a site I am still unsure about just newly joined so we shall see called http://sleepingmommy.com
I also had my kids force me into trying these new hersheys kissables I had 2 and I say YUCK!!!! They are a cheap wanna be M&M!!!!
I had a lady call me about Puggles I so wish I had more money cause it's like someone putting it in front of me and then saying nope ya can't have one they are excellently priced. Her name is Shanda she is in the states and she said I could let people know so here is some info for you to reach her she says she has lots. Check her out. She gave me the price range of $415-750US I live in BC and would cost me $280 to ship here and can be emailed at countrysideskennel@lakewebs.net so if you do have the money I think that is an excellent price and she says she has tons and more to come so what do you have to loose? I do know alot of people wrote me to ask if I had heard anything so there ya go I also had this lady write from Canada and since she is posting in canada I am guessing I can post some of it: http://www.puggle.org I just posted an ad on that site. We like in Sask, and are puggle breeders, live on a farm One female just sold to Vancouver. Shipping isn't that bad... for example $125.00 from Regina to Vancouver which includes the puppy kennel. Our price is $1200.00 plus shipping. Caroline so you can check out that site

I envy you if you get one

I saw this infomercial last night for Yoga Booty Ballet OMFG has anyone actually ordered this thing? I think I would rather go to a pole dancing class which I seriously would like to go to but would love to go with someone to cause I am now having anxiety attacks being around people that I didn't used to have

Not sure how to spell his name but I hope I spell it right Josh Manciewietz he is so cool I love listening to his things on dateline, yep dateline again I am telling you it is one of the best show on TV!
Has anyone heard about the blog ward between Jason Garfield and Chris Bliss? Like OMFG so what you two juggle different amount of balls who fricken really cares? Like the whole internet is gonna get online and have a big todo about one juggling 3 or more balls.
So how am I doing on my new meds? Grrr the topomax? not sure if that is how to spell it or not it apparently is making me loud and excitable. I am constantaly being told I am loud and getting excited which eventually does get to a person, makes you feel bad about yourself ya know? Apparently is not helping my wrestless legs either as I am forever rocking them and the heaviness and tinglingling in my fingers I had is completely gone. So not exactly sure what will be done next. I don't want to go off them as I am not violent and I am not out of it and most importantly I AM NOT SICK!!!! OMG Lithium makes me so sick.
Poor Phil lost his wallet, like he was never meant to have that wallet, I bought it for my dad to make him at christmas and he made it with DJ's name so he cut it out and put Phils name and was gonna fix it later but now he has lost it. Guess I will be buying a new one AGAIN and this time will have his name on it and not cut into like last time. Costly when you lose all your ID though. We had to call the police, his work the companies, all ID in there OMG fricken harsh!
In the meantime my wallet broke I been using it not being able to zipper it. I SOOOOOOOOOOOOOo need a new wallet.
Going to Phil's mothers on saturday she does a yearly easter hunt for the kids which my kids love. This year Colin will be there and my kids love Colin and JC they think they are hilarious and fun. Little apprehensive with all the problems Phil and I have had I feel kind of out of place again. Feel unwanted and unliked but I guess I should be used to that.
Does anyone know if cats have feelings? Cause Casper has gotten really fat and Phil insists his feelings are getting hurt by only being called fat ass by everyone. Today when someone told them they loved him but he is really fat he got down off the chair and ate when they left he got back up on the chair and slept. I was like hmmmm maybe it is hurting his feelings. But how do you know? I mean he's a cat*sigh*
Oh Does anyone know how to authenticate a David Beckham apparently autographed picture? I would have thought there has to be a certificate of authenticity. I really would have to hate to pay again to authenticate it. But anyone could have just signed it for crying out loud right? I am talking about the soccer player.
Oh my mother pisses me off. She is taking me daughter away this summer for a couple weeks and I can barely afford crap as it is and she expects me to get her a whole new fricken wardrobe and then some for when they go. Screw that. I have alot more things to think about.
At least things are not as hecktic as they were and alot of plans are now in place and supports and I feel better about that.
Phil and I are talking more. I just wish he hadn't gotten himself in the situation he has. But I guess we all go through those periods in our life.
Teeth are hurting more and more, my one tooth has broken AGAIN not sure how it is still staying in my mouth but it does hurt

Anyhow think I have talked people bored so am off for now....

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Sattorie Happy Easter Apr 16th, 2006 11:36:01 pm - Subscribe

Well Happy Easter everyone hope it was a good one for everyone. Pretty quiet around here. One kid is at my sisters, one kid was up at 4am so we opened baskets with her and then the other was up at 8 am and then he left this afternoon till tomorrow. So been quiet around here. Feels wierd. Good though cause I cannot shake this fricken headache I have had it for days I am sure the tooth problems are a huge part of it

Kids liked their baskets. I never did go with Phil to his parents yesterday
because my two oldest stayed home and I didn't want to leave them here alone together and that turned out to be a good thought.
Ya know my whole life there is a few places I have always wanted to go one is new orleans and another is New York City. I still do among a few other places but I keep finding more reasons why I want to go to NYC. Now I want to go to see this tatoo artist Paul Booth his work is fricken incredible http://www.darkimages.com . I would just die to have anything on me from him. If you saw his work you would want it done too. I love tatoos always have but his is some of the best work I have ever seen. I would love to also see a NYC tatoo convention apparently it is just huge.OMG I so wish I had the money to just spend on whatever I wanted. I think tats are beautiful pieces of art walking around. True I have seen some bad ones but when their good their really good. Here's a little stat for you apparently 1 in 10 americans have tatoos and females are the largest growing poulation in getting them. That is very exciting. I am not much into the piercings but I think some are cool. The body modification strange to me and makes me nervous apparently it is done with pieces of teflon. I just can't see that being safe and how do they test to see if you will have a reaction to that? Although it is not up my alley I am hugely an adorer of Erik The LizardMan You so so so have to check him out man http://www.thelizardman.com he actually looks like a lizard with tats, split tongue, body modification, even teeth done.
Oh I do keep a blog and a list of some interesting blogs and some of my fave sites on msn space here: http://spaces.msn.com/yourladyillusions/ I have pictures there too but cannot get to them or even see them anymore, but am told they are still there

Phil and I had a little better a day yesterday which was nice. Last week the one bad day we had was just really bad I took his keys and his bag and pushed him out the door and told him I didn't want to see him again till after karate and work. Just needed a cool down period. First time I have done that. I think I was just really also cranky to everyone that day. Some days lately I just feel so on edge. I see my psychiatrist this week and we'll see how things are gonna go with these new meds. Not so sure I can say they are working. My thoughts are all a mess but my moods are changing as quickly as normal. However they are still changing up and down and anxiety is still there

Sometimes I think Phil is right sometimes I think God does have a cruel sense of humour.Why are some people so damn perfect and some of us so messed up? He doesn't get why he has to loose his hair and he thinks he is fat and ugly now when he's not but he thinks that is what happens to some men while other men keep their hair and looks. I told him think about us women we have biological clocks, periods, menopause, tits drop, butts drop, babies to carry to deliver, oh and he thinks women can jump out of bed with the perfect hair it falls into place and men have to work at it to make it look good. Grrrrrrrr whatever. That is why we girls have ponytails right?
Speaking of which God or the Girl just came on, we'll see if I watch it or not. Looks kinda interesting.
You know I was shocked yesterday to learn that heroin is the number one drug in white age 16 yr old femalesin middle class family in the usa right now. Years ago it had a 10% purity level now a days you can find at a 50 to 80% level. Which is the apparent reason for the rise in overdoses. It's been said it's easier to buy drugs than alcohol by teens, that is scary coming from the parent of a teen.There is a mother who speaks out about heroin use so that the death of her daughter is not in vain. Her daughters name was Erin Allen. She had gotten clean for 9 mos but one day went for a routine blood test and was triggered to use. Not long after her mother got a call and was told her daughter was in the morgue of a heroin overdose. I find that so scary and so sad. Her mother is so strong and I think it is great she can share her daughters story. Her daughter kept a diary writing to heroin as if it were her best friend which really opens ones eyes to how much this stuff does to you. It takes you over and it only takes once and boom you could be gone. I like what Dr.Lance Gooberman does he does a surgery that costs $3000 US he puts you out and puts in a drug to pull out the heroin from your system, after he watches you go through withdrawl and back to normal he inserts this little pellet which not sure if this is spelled right but is called maltrexon. If you try and take heroin it won't do anything you won't get high it slowly dissolves over a period of months. I guess not everyone believes in it but I say it's something. I would hope in canada something like that would be covered.
I believe we need more help as parents of young and teens because there is not a whole lot out there for us. Not here in canada anyhow. Family Services are more than happy to tell you to put them into the justice system if they get too out of control. Well not every kid needs the justice system, and why does it have to get to that point? If they had more set up and more options for parents and teens then maybe the need for the justice system would not even be in the damn equation. How many parents now a days have had their kids threatened them if you touch me or do whatever is they don't think you should do I will call the poilce or SS? I know there is alot. They do it because they are taught they now have the power and they can threaten adults. In result of that alot of adults have given up. Now not sure how that works around the world but I know in canada it seems to have gone from one extreme when I grew up to the exact opposite extreme.
The other day our cat Storm was driving me insane with his insesant meowing so I told Phil to settle him down as he always seems to for him. Well he did, he had though disappeared I thought he sunk in the bathroom, but when he came down and I asked him where he went he said he had put Storm to bed. Actually took the cat put him in bed and layed with him till he fell asleep and then came back downstairs. I have to say sometime I am a little jealous of Storm and Phil they sometimes seem to have a closer relationship then Phil and I do. How pathetic am I to be jealous of a fricken cat? I should be happy to have someone who loves a cat and is patient like that with a cat.
Since everyone has been stressed and getting sick I been making sure everyone is taking vitamins, I get Phil these new losanges from halls called Halls Oxygen and I also get him the Halls Vitamin C. I also get alot of orange juice and they don't seem to be much into eating the oranges but the apples are getting eaten as well as bananas so I do buy those.
One of my favorite shows I love is called I Detective I like it because I like to see how many answers I can get right and most I do get right. However one show I was think how can you say the murder was premeditated just because there was a gas can in the car? If I were the defense lawyer I would argue that. I admit they definetly murdered the guy up on remote mountain with a gun but just because they had a gas can in thecar does not mean they thought it out ahead of time. Sometimes people do have a gas can in the car as an emergency thing or just to have it. I mean we've talked about having some for when the gas prices go up or if we get stuck somewhere, saying it was in thee for murder is an assumption. But hey that's just my opinion.
Just before the weekend a kid was forced to sit in the corner by a student teacher wearing a cap the teacher made saying DUNCE on it with the class there. The teacher is no longer there. I would have blown up. What the hell is wrong with fricken people? That is not acceptable you do not do that to a kid at school or anywhere else, that shit stays with you, trust me!!!
Ya know I can understand why alot of criminals want to come to canada. Look at Karla Maholka she should still be in jail just like Paul Bernardo. She damn well killed her little sister. She administer the sleeping pills and then the stuff to knock her out. Over the years she could have done something or said something. The police really screwed up that case. There should have been a way to get out of the plea bargain she gave them. She really did get a sweet sweet deal and they know it too. Scary to know she is out there. Although our laws may not be as harsh I do not agree with the death penealty and I don't believe in corporal punishment. But I do think we need to upgrade our system.
There was a guy in Anamosa Penitentiary 2005 in Iowa and I don't know his name and didn't catch all the words but really really loved what he spun out and he called it Concrete & Steel. Anyone know how I could find out who wrote it and the words? I loved it so much. That prison is pretty cool they have a program called S.A.V.E. where victims and their families meet up with the prisoner to deal with the crime that affected them all. I think that could be a very healing program. They showed 2 sets of brothers in Anamosa 1 set are 100% brothers who had guys go after them and one is in for life for killing one with a gun the other is hoping to be parolled in 8 to 10 years for cutting another guy up. The 2 brothers that brought tears to my eyes though were the half brothers they share the same mother. They don't blame her they said she struggled to do what she could and she told them they should have listened to her but they didn't. The one brother has never known his dad was reffered to as a sperm donor apparently he pushed the mother down the stairs when she was 3 mos pregnant and the other brother the dad left when he was 5 and he don't know him and doesn't want to. One is in for first degree robbery one is in for second degree robbery. Anyhow it only made me feel stronger in my convictions about keeping the lines open with my kids about their father. DJ his dad is Bryan and I have told him as much as possible he has always known about him and I always continue to encourage that maybe one day his dad could still be in his life. It's sad you know his family is so wealthy they own a couple of mcdonalds in ontario good catholic family big home on the water and his family has done everything to push him away. Yet I continue to keep the positive face up. He looks just like his dad and I think they have alot in common and I think there is still alot of possability if Bryan ever grows up! Girls their grandparents have always kept close to the girls and Michael he is up and down but he is taking Mary and I think he could really blossom once he has her. They are so alike. Yes I believe parents no matter what and no matter what age should never put down their other parent or tell them they are a result of something bad I have seen what damage that does I see it everyday, why do people just not get it? I did find a cool site of work of prisoners if anyone is interested in that http://www.prisonwall.org
This may piss some people I truly car NOT but I want to say there really needs to be more attention payed to women with post partum depression. I truly believe that the defense lawyer Kutmass felt Heidi Afinson was guilty and did not truly defend her the way she deserved. Pleading Jacobs death was an accident. He needed to plead post partum depression, mental illness, she needed to into hospital. being in jail until she is in her 80's is crap. There is mom's out there that yeah are sick and have killed their kids in cold blood but I honestly in my heart believe she was mentally ill at the time. I am glad the one juror held out in Des Moines IA and there was a hung jury but to have the jury find her guilty of second degree murder in Davensport IA. I know so far her new lawyer hasn't had much luck but I iwsh her lawyer Maggi Moss all the love and luck. For those needing help or more ino on post partum depression this is a great link http://www.postpartum.net/
Anyhow I am sore and tired and it's quiet and I will leave with a couple more things I heard someone say last night this"Don't smoke, don't chew & don't date date girls who do"
I heard earlier today that there is a possible arrest in the Natalie Halloway case a 19yr old with initials GVC? I guess we shall watch to see how that story develops I am sure her mom is thrilled K later....

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