Idolatress
Today Is: Jan 15th, 2006 10:36:54 am - Subscribe
I Feel: Sick
These gardens of angst
In which I stand
Lost and confused
Hungry for more
Eager to cross
This river of tears
Safe in this void
In which I live
Free from despair
Weaving a web
Surrounding my soul
Imprisoned distress
In a world of dying angels
Trespassers on unknown domains
Traumatic defeat
This time I'll burn
For one thousand years
Bearing the truth
Deep down inside
It dies with me
Taste the pure salt
Of misery
Hell's ecstasy
Feel destiny
Breathe in your neck
Cut you so deep
Twisting my mind
Living in sin
Dying within
Wicked and mean
Sinister eyes
Staring at me
Arch Enemy
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Everyone I Love Is Dead
Today Is: Jan 14th, 2006 8:18:00 pm - Subscribe
I Feel: Crushed
My Soul's Medicine: Type O Negative - Everyone I love Is Dead
Seems three years - though maybe four
someone drops dead - whom i adore
you love someone - there will be grief
the kiss of death - lips of a thief - goddammit
A dusty stack of photographs
of times i cried - but mostly laughed
commit the past - into blue flame
acrid smoke - cowardly shame - goddammit
At times i'm truly terrified
cause dope and booze - don't help to hide
they're used to mask - a weakling's hurt
it's just like painting - over dirt
Everyone i love is - dead - everyone i love is - dead - all dead
life's a game i cannot win
both good and bad - must surely end
the mirrors - always tell the truth
i love myself for hating you
Everyone i love is - dead - everyone i love is - dead
everyone i love is - dead - everyone i love is - dead - goddammit
Goddammit
All dead - all dead
all dead all dead all dead all dead all dead all dead all dead
all dead - all dead
goddammit
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Prince Of Eyeliners
Today Is: Jan 2nd, 2006 12:10:09 pm - Subscribe
I Feel: sinful
My Soul's Medicine: L'ame Immortelle - 5 Jahre
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Messing with..
Today Is: Dec 29th, 2005 2:48:23 pm - Subscribe
I Feel: wicked
My Soul's Medicine: Anders Manga - Burn
Photoshop.. Such a lovely thing.
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Alone - Is it worth it?
Today Is: Dec 26th, 2005 8:33:19 pm - Subscribe
I Feel: alone
My Soul's Medicine: Mattafix - Big City Life
Alone is so much easier, once you get used to that idea. You just do what you do.. You don't have to care about anyone/thing, don't have to talk to anyone.. You're just abiding. Living your life in your own way. Alone.
But what about those times when you want to talk? When you need some comfort? Help? A warm hug? A kiss? A touch? You don't get that when you give up. You don't get all that when you're alone.
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Inside
Today Is: Dec 17th, 2005 12:36:55 am - Subscribe
I Feel: empty
My Soul's Medicine: Joseph Arthur - Eyes On My Back
Inside there's a black hole and no-one knows.
Shadows..
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Don't cry
Today Is: Dec 10th, 2005 4:39:06 pm - Subscribe
I Feel: Painpainpainpainpainpain......
My Soul's Medicine: Foo Fighters - Best Of You
"No one can live in sorrow" - according to Guns N' Roses. Really?
I'm a citizen of the land called "sorrow". I have pain for brakefast, agony for lunch and loneliness for dinner. And I'm alive.
Thinking about it. Why bother? I mean, life is here for me to enjoy. What happenes if you suffer much more then you feel pleasure? Is it worth it?
Fight.
But what if there's no more strength left?
Friends.
They don't exist in my world. But there are exchanges of words in temporary company sometimes. Useless.
Family.
Ha, this is the part when I fall on the floor, laughing. The Addams family is NOTHING comparing to mine.
Money.
Sometimes I just really hate it. At times when it's absent. How can you live without money (and not turning into a criminal)?
I wonder what next in my life will go wrong.
Who guesses right will get an autographed suicide letter.
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Empty inside
Today Is: Dec 9th, 2005 2:18:48 pm - Subscribe
I Feel: empty
My Soul's Medicine: HIM - Your Sweet 666
I did it. I erased all my past entries.
The reason was myself and my inner world. I've been feeling numb and empty for a while now, so I had to empty this place as well, since it IS my world that I'm sharing here.
I will continue writing here and.. That's it basicly.
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