she_says's Blog

boyfriend replacement
Date: Jan 28th, 2006 11:25:34 pm - Subscribe
Mood: pathetic


i miss him.





i miss him terribly. ive never felt so pathetic in my life.

just reviewing the events of the past two months, i finally can see how it all happened. how could i have missed all the signs? they were right in front of me. of course i should have known that my best friend was betraying me right before my eyes.

it was too much to take. it all happened so fast. next thing i knew i had lost my best friend of 7 years, and him. i took so much time telling him that the timing was not right, that he just moved on by the time i was ready.

and now hes gone.
and hes with her.
and she cares about him. she really does.

and i dont know if he feels the same way about her. i dont know anything anymore.


and i have mark. and hes great. he really is.

i just dont feel it.

i cant make myself feel for mark what i felt for him

and i just know that im going to break down tonight and call him and sound pathetic.

i knew that i didnt feel the same way for mark that i did for him when he said "do you like mark?" and i said "none of your business."

i couldnt lie.


im tired of lying. especially to myself.


i dont know what to do anymore.
Comments: (2)

velouria - January 28th, 2006 I'm sorry to hear you're hurting! Just be true to yourself

deathcab4u - January 29th, 2006 Peace. I hope things pull together.

Only registered / logged in members can post comments on this blog entry.